you think when I smile, its real
that these sleeves are just a style
that the way I am is just.... normal maybe?
that what you see and I see are the same
well, they're not
I'm not fine, I'm fucked up
pressure eating me, swallowing me up
what you call these jokes and harmless words are suffocating me
I'm hiding in a shell, wishing someone to crack it open
I wish I could tell you
tell you how I just wish you, or anyone will look deeper than my acting face
I guess the truth is, I am a fantastic actress, except this role never ends...until.....
until I'm alone
anything can set me off,
but the confines of these four walls when I am alone...
they just yell, scream, shriek
everything rushes back
my whole life, all those... everything
and squeezing me, till I cant breath,
id do anything to get a release, any kind of release
so, I am not as fine as I tell you, with a quick lying smile
I want you to know, you just wouldn't understand
you try to, everybody tries to
it just never works out
I hope one day I could tell you the tuth for once, I hope you wont run and break me like the others...
I just hope, hope so much that it doesn't seem real
YOU ARE READING
not so fine
Poetryyou just think, what I am saying is the truth... but only, its not