Natasha Casanova

Chapter one:thank you

If you focus on the hurt,you will continue to suffer
If you focus on the lesson,you will continue grow.
-unknown

Please the little girl says in the corner with her head down quivering with tears dripping down her face staining it with horrid memories.Shut it says the tall man above her with a wreaking stench of alcohol in the air.

His beard stubbly clearly nor shaven in forever.The poor girls eyes meet with his while she trembles with fear within her.The glass bottle of vodka comes in contact with the floor shattering into millions of tiny pieces.

The girl winces at the noise backing away farther from the man.Get up says the man gripping the girl upright from the cold floor.Please begs the girl trying to break away from the horrible man keeping her.

The man grips her tighter where she can barely breath from all the pain.The man enters a plain room with a closet and guides her into it with her in his arms.

He opens it roughly and tosses the girl straight onto the ground making her scrawl back up.Please don't leave me she says in a dire tone.The man shuts the door leaving the girl in the cold dark room locked with no way out to escape.

She stays there limp on the floor in her own pool of tears,her thoughts consuming her rabidly.

That poor girl.
Was me.

No,no,no I say waking up in a cold sweat from the nightmare I just witnessed.I pant trying to focus on my breathing.I Rock myself back and forth with my head in my legs,it's just a dream I remind myself.He's not gonna hurt me I breath out.

I step out of the bed and walk faintly to the restroom.The water splashes as I rinse my face trying to erase the dream from my mind.I sigh not knowing why the dreams are coming back.

I walk back steadily back to the bed and sit down letting the bed sink cause of my weight.The silk sheets touching my skin lightly making me feel penetrated.

I lay back onto the bed facing the ceiling taking in slow breaths.I slowly fall back into my peaceful sleep,once more.

***

Good morning says Adam sipping his coffee at the table.Hey I say just wanting to get some coffee,if I don't get fucking coffee I don't socialize yet.

Adam is like a brother to me,we have had our own ups and downs but he has been there for me and I have been there for him,more me for him but that's what I love about him he opens up.I don't,we'll not completely.

I didn't always live here,Antonio he found me and gave me a reason to keep on living so I took it.He's like my father well he is old enough to be so I guess he is.Since you know the saying,blood doesn't mean family.

I use to have a horrible live when I was younger,no mother.She left when I was just little for another man leaving me with my father,I never had siblings either.

My father wasn't a good man.He was addicted to drugs alcohol and dumb shit he did.He owed Antonio a lot of cash but he didn't have it so he offered me to Antonio,but instead of him keeping me for camps for other men,he saved me.

I do remember my father,I don't know where he is or if he is even alive I just always assumed he was dead but If I ever find him in my path I will kill him.Not an easy death a painful one by taking my time to get back to all the things he put me through.

And for my mother,I don't know her and I don't wanna know her she left me with the bastard of the men I know as and I hate her for that but if I was
Her I would've left him too any chance I got.

***

What jobs do I have today I ask Adam as soon as I have had coffee in my System.I don't know you would have to ask Antonio says Adam spreading cream cheese onto a plain bagel.Ok I say sitting down at the empty chair.

I munch on a granola bar and a banana since I don't really usually eat breakfast.I have to go but I'll be back later says Adam placing the plate into the sink.K bye I say waving him off not even lifting my eyes from my book.

I enjoy reading even though people say it's boring it's not really,I find it fascinating what people can pull together in only a few hundred pages.I am currently reading the gift,it's an amazing poetry book.

I have already finished it over a million times but I enjoy reading it over and over again,it's my happy item and I don't have many of those.I use to refer some quotes from the book to my normal day basis.

One of my favorite ones was,
"Sometimes you have to give yourself to
Somebody In order to see who you are.
I believe that what I had to do to become who I am right now and that person was Antonio.

I never thought that I would be apart of a mafia and it would be the best thing for me but it was.i was helpless and now I could kill about anyone I could want with just one bullet except for one person.

Ace Fucking king.

Ace and me have had a rivalry since I got into this mafia thing.It started when the balls started to begin.Every Year the kings would have an annual ball to gather the mafias together to try to create new allies but it was the opposite.

I was sent to a job in a bar and that's when I first met Ace.I see into him on a job,and he happened to get into the way,he thought I was a spy.And he attacked me,he started it,he accused me of trying to ruin his mafia legacy.

Since then we have had it for each other trying to prove whose better and more powerful.Antonio and Aces father have also had a rivalry before but they decided to not interfere with each other but that didn't end well since me and Ace started to try to kill each other every chance we got.

We have never succeeded at killing each other and it's been how many years,eight,eight years we have been at it with each other.

I want to kill him as bad as I would want to kill my father and I'm not exaggerating like I hate that boy.He just gets under my skin and it doesn't help that we see each other only every year so I don't get a chance to kill him very often.

The annual ball is soon,to soon and I am dreading it.I don't mean to be rude but I hate dresses,that doesn't mean I hate dressing up but not dresses.There itchy and just over all aggravating but Antonio says I have to like to like a real mafia princess.

Sometimes even a queen he says.

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Antonio I say opening the door slightly in his office.Yes he says typing away at his desk nor really paying attention to my presence.Do I have any jobs today I say sitting down in the seat in front of his desk crossing my hands into my lap.

Oh yea he says let me pull them up.
I stay silent listening to his typing.There he says,you have Daniel black,a human trafficker,28.You will seduce him at a bar and take him out and kill him and I will send people with you to take care of the body he says looking up at me.

What bar I ask.Kings he says slurring the name making sure I heard it.I pretend not to care but he knows I do,what time I say switching up the question.

9:00 pm he says checking his watch.Ok I say standing up.Natasha he says making me stop in my tracks.Yes I say turning around to face him.Wear a dress he says.Do I-I say but he interrupts me before I could finish.Yes you do now end of discussion now I have to get back to my work.

Fine I say groaning,I walk out and slam the door a bit just to piss him off a bit.Natasha! He yells when the door slams.I just giggle it out knowing I have succeeded.

End of the first chapter I know it's short I'm sorry but I hope you enjoy!
I will be putting quotes on top of every chapter!