All About Us.

II : Where do broken hearts go?

It was friday, February 7, every people were so excited for the youth service. Youth, Family, Barkada and couples were there too. The whole place was so crowded. There's so many people who attended the service.

I am there also, with my illegal brother Daniel, we were the first to come because we are a part of a ministry in there. Then a few minutes later, they started the service. People were singing for God, others were so sweet, others hold their hands together, others raises their hands and others were just singing.

After they sing, we prayed. And then they started the preaching, the topic was about True Love vs. Physical Appearance.

They also talked about teens who have their bf's and gf's. Before the preaching ended, there is a thing they said that made me feel so curious.

After the service she was walking alone, i tap her in her back and said

"Heyy!" But she said "Dags, wala na. Tapos nato ah?" I said "Na?" She said "Wala ng mutual mutual"

Then she walk straight ahead, she left me alone. She didn't say goodbye to me. I was walking alone, i only have myself.

When i got home, i walk straight to my room. I was thinking of what she said. Every word i hear was echoing in my ear. My mind, my eyes were close and then i found myself crying. I picked my phone, and turn the data connection on. I was scrolling through facebook then she sent me a message

"Hey" then i replied, "Hey, totoo ba yung sinabi mo kanina?" She said "Ewan, Oo siguro" I said "Ano pwede ba kitang tawagan?" then she said "Oo na, tama na. Ayoko na ng mutual feelings, pero kung ako lang, di ko naman gugustuhin to e" and said this after that "Oo sge mag call ka" Then i replied "Hayyy, oo na sge. Alam ko naman yun e, Thankyou nalang sa lahat. Bye" "De sge, dinako tatawag. Wala narin e, Thankyou nalang ulit" I said.

After that she said "Dags, please magcall ka. Di na bako pwedeng mag explain? :(" So i call her. She was crying, and so do i. My eyes won't stop crying, it was the first time she heard me cry, i can't speak well. My pillow was so soaked with my tears, we didn't even talked i guess. All i know was that i am so broken, i can't think of anything by that time. There's nothing i could hear, see. I didn't even care for my voice,

after a few minutes, my tears stopped from falling, it was 11 pm i guess. She turned off her phone, i can't call her anymore because it's already 12pm there.

I can control my feeling so i keep on crying. I am so broken, all those promises, sweetness, sacrifices, chances, they were all gone. All i have was a picture of her together with me on my phone. I installed my backupp application on my phone.

I deleted all her pictures, messages on my phone because I was out of my mind, i don't know what i'm doing. i keep on telling myself "Where do broken hearts go?"

"Where would i be without her?"