Live While Were Young

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September 1st of 2002

I sit in front of a mirror with unshed tears in my eyes and horrible pain across my body.

This can't be happening. I think to myself "this isn't how I wanted things to go" Fizzy comes and sits next to me - You know It's barely noticeable right? - - Barely noticeable what are you talking about it's a gigantic scar that goes from my forehead down to my ear- i yell at her trying not to cry - Well at least it isn't across your face it's on the side of it and if anyone ask say you have a wild cat or some shit like that - - Ugh i'm not going to school looking like this i'll make a terrible first impression it's all red and puffy- the bad part of being locked up in a shed every full moon is that my other half gets desperate and starts scratching itself and i'm the one who has to deal with the aftermath.

Mom enters a while later with gauze and creams and other bad smelling medicines - On your stomach so i can heal your back - She orders and i do as she says Fizzy leaves my room taking her mirror with her and i don't mind, she hates seeing my scars as much as i hate her seeing them so she just leaves the room as i lay on the bed while my mom puts hydrogen peroxide on my back and i immediately hiss biting my hand in order to not scream so much - There we go - she says cleaning the peroxide and blood from my back with a towel - We're done okay? i finished i'm just going to bind you up with the bandage and you'll be as good as new - i nod because i know if i speak i might hiss in pain and i don't want my mom worrying - My brave little boy, you know you're very strong right? not anyone goes through what you have gone thru and still smiles, Oh how i love you - my mom keeps murmuring nice encouraging words as she always does after the full moon she thinks i don't hear them but they actually make me feel better and i hope someone might help me at Hogwarts as my mom does i mean 'm not expecting Dumbledore to come and cure me like mom does but maybe a teacher - Mom can i go to Hogwarts tomorrow when the scar on my face is less puffy an red and obvious ?- she sighs which meant No i was kinda expecting her to do so but well it couldn't hurt to ask - I wish i could say yes love but i don't even know for sure where the school is besides i remember your dad once told me he would never forget the first time he saw Hogwarts, wouldn't you rather see the school the first time with the rest of your classmates and possibly Niall?- i couldn't see her face but i knew she was raising her eyebrow it's something Fizzy and she did a lot they raised their eyebrow in this questioning way - I guess - - That's the attitude now get changed before we miss the bus- i got changed in my best clothes and grabbed a casual robe Miss Horan gave me to wear on top of it for the train but i wasn't planning on putting it on till i was at the station if i wore a robe on the bus i would just look ridiculous.

On the bus i sat between my mom and an old lady, my sister was on my mom's other side and everything was okay until a pregnant lady came in the bus and she realized there was no other place in the bus so she'd have to go standing up and i'd normally just be a nice person and give her my seat but i was in pain okay, just moving my arm hurt but of course the pregnant lady didn't know this and kept staring at me with pleading eyes of course i avoided eye contact and i'm not normally a rude person but i couldn't even reach the holding thingys at the top of the bus so you don't fall.

Finally like an hour later (not literally) my sister saw my dilemma and stood up and offered the woman her place as she grabbed the pole in the middle of the bus so she wouldn't fall and everyone stared at her as she was a hero i just kept staring at the ground until we arrived to Kings cross station and with help from my mom we all got off the bus as we went down the station i whispered to my mom - You know i wanted to give her my place right it wasn't because i wanted to be mean it's just that i really couldn't - she nodded understandingly - I know don't worry you don't have to explain yourself - that let me breath out in relief that at least my mom didn't think i was a bad person - So do you have your ticket - - Yes mom - - I still can't believe you're letting him go to this school mom, if i were you i'd keep him locked up in the house and never let him out - -You are just saying that because you'll miss him - my mom replied smirking - Well of course, look at him mom he's leaving us how can you be okay who am i going to bother now - Mom just laughed but i took advantage of her words - You.... will.... miss.... me? - - Oh don't let it get to your head kid i'll just miss teasing you and you doing the dishes and you letting me paint your nails and you playing charades with me and you sneaking into the Gibsons abandoned house with me but besides that i will not even remember you - she stated with a tiny barely visible amused smile playing on her lips - Your so dumb and silly but i'll miss you too - - Ugh don't say stuff like that you'll make me cry and i will not appear weak in public- i laughed because i knew my sister was joking and that was one of the things id miss the most of her, her dumb humor i hugged her and whispered in her ear - Oh and by the way i rearranged all your Cd's, records and books before leaving so now your perfectionist OCD butt can spend the weekend arranging them in alphabetical order again- after i backed up i saw the furry in her eyes and it's that she had a rule that we were not to ever touch her stuff cause she has everything color codded and alphabetically sorted so i messed it up as a goodbye present, she was going to say something but mom cut her off - My big boy promise me to take care and be very careful of your condition ? - - I promise now can we cross the brick wall please? - Mom nodded (When Miss Horan explained to us how to get to platform 9 ¾ mom didn't quite believe her but we really had no other choice but to trust her) So grabbing my cart i prepared myself and thought well the worst possible scenario i crash against the wall but that way at least my mom and sister won't do it, i breathed in and took two steps back and ran with all my might with closed eyes and i felt as i passed thru the brick wall it was strange as something was swallowing me but then i bumped into something when i opened my eyes there was this tall skinny boy standing there - Hey watch where your going mudblood- - Well i'm not the moron who stood right in front of the brick wall where people are constantly coming out from- i had grown to hate the word mudblood ever since Diagon Alley - Im sorry what did you just call me? - - Oh so besides a moron your deaf - i said mater of factly he started going red and clenching his fist so hard they were white but before he could do anything his mother i assumed called him over - Hurry up Thomas you're going to be late - the mother looked so obnoxious the train didn't leave in about half an hour i knew because i kept checking the clock constantly to make sure i myself wasn't late.