Trust ( Jacob Whitesides )

chapter 4: the pain

When Jake leaves it hurts. I wish he would just be mine. Mackenzie is a whore and doesn't deserve a guy like him. When he left I went to the bathroom. Not for a good reason. Only to find the blade waiting... I picked it up and did my business and cleaned it up. When I finished I looked up some quotes about cutting. Knowing I'm not the only one who does it. After I saw a couple I thought of my own. Not as good as others but still there. One really stood out in my mind. I thought for a while about it. It goes: Only do they notice how so badly it hurt. When they look in her closet to see her holding a rope. Her body holding the rope so pale and fragile. Hanging there for a long while. They see a recorder standing there. For a message it holds she's been waiting to share.: its more about suicide then cutting. But they Are more of the same thing. Jake said he would come back after his date. So probably around 7:30 and its already 7:00 so I decided I would go ahead and clean up from all the pain. So I decided to take a shower and put on some fuzzy pajamas. I wanted to laugh some so I decided to turn on Netflix. I found an interesting movie that was just added. Its called the interview. I wonder what its about.....