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4.30am

I stood outside at porch, looking at waterfall...
I couldn't fall asleep after what happened between us...
I wore his t-shirt and went outside...
It wasn't cold or warm outside.. it was just perfect...
I couldn't stop blaming myself that.. I did it with him..
But why?.. After all I love him...
Or maybe because he never told me what he feels about me...
I don't know how to express what I feel right now...
Mixed emotions... hate, love, passion, sadness... Everything in one...
But I do love him a lot... but why do I feel the wrong feeling in me...
He came to me after two years... saying that he needs me, he misses me... but why when he divorced me?..

Y/N: "Why you did that?..."
I asked myself looking at waterfall.

Jimin: "To protect you from other Mafia.. more dangerous ones. I wanted you to be safe. They wanted to hurt you, but I wanted you to be safe, so I divorced you. And did what I had to do with them."

I turned around as I heard his voice..
He was standing in doorway, with only jeans on as I was with his t-shirt...
He spoke in serious voice, making my heart beat increase once more...
But this time his eyes was saying the same what he said...
He wanted to protect me...

Gulps.
Y/N: "But why two years?.."

He stepped closer and held my cheeks...
My eyes were getting teary...
My mind... my heart amd I wanted answers...
Even though he told why... for me it wasn't the answer...
I wanted him to say it into my eyes...
But why I'm pressuring him?...
I don't want to pressure him... I need to give him time...

Jimin: "It took me year to make sure you will be safe until I die and another year... to realise something."

The moment I knew... my eyes grew bigger.. and tears left my eyes...
He was honest with me... first time...
First time in our lifetime he was honest with me...
He spoke looking into my eyes... he spoke honestly..
I never saw that much honestly in his eyes... before...
It was just... just overwhelming...
But does that means... he loves me?...
Or he wants to start new life?...
Without Mafia stuff... and killing?...

Y/N: "D-does that means...?"
I stuttered.

He just pulled me into his embrace..
I didn't knew.. why?... but I started cry...
I started cry hugging him tightly...
Mix of emotions... filled me... I was speechless..
He didn't needed words to express what he felt...
His eyes did it instead of him...
It said much more than he did... and it was great...
Honestly... love... kindness... carriness... was in him...
But all he could do was hide it...
But today... he showed different his self...
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Y/N: "What would you like to eat? I'll order.."
I asked him softly.

He looked at menu and when at me...
He didn't spoke after we both stood in porch in early morning...
But I didn't wanted to pressure him...

Jimin: "Anything what you'll eat."

I nod with soft smile...
That all I needed... just few words from him...
I understood... the feeling of love... after tonight and the morning...
I understood... how we can love each other without words...
How we can protect each other without seeing each other...
I understood how strong our love can be...
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He held my hand going through the path...
He didn't let go of it after leaving cafe...
Nor I moved aside...
I liked it.. I liked this type of attention...
Small things, which he did made my heart beat increase...
I inhaled softly.. with little smile on my face...
The glimpse of happiness was getting into my heart...
I never through that finally... I can be happy...
I can be with him...
He stopped.. making me stop and look at him...
He looked in my eyes...
The glimpse of love, happiness was in his eyes...
The overwhelming feeling was coming inside him...
That was visible to be seen...

Jimin: "There's one thing I want to say..."
He spoke seriously.

I smiled and caressed his cheek...
He flinched a little bit not excepting it...
But soon he leaned into it...
He liked the soft touch on his cheek...

Y/N: "Don't pressure yourself to say it... if you can't say it now. Say it when you will feel like saying it. I can wait.."

Maybe it did hurted me... but I didn't wanted to pressure him..
He needs time and I know it...

Sometimes we all need time to realise something.
If it's love or it's mistake.
We can't pressure ourself to do something, which we can't do now.
Maybe we will can do it later?
But no matter what we do or say.
It always will take time.

The End

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