What should I do.... The question still pop's up in my head every single day, and the only answer I can think about is: I don't know...
I want to tell her how I feel for her, that I've fallen for her, for her eyes, for her smile..yeah just the hole of her. But I can't, I can't risk our friendship. I don't want to lose you, it's the last thing one earth I want to happen. So I'll will shut up and be quiet about my emotions. Like usually...
February...what can I say about it...The valentines day...love... Oh every thing is hopeless, in school almost everybody have a boyfriend/girlfriend and they stand in the middle of the corridor and make out...ugh... I hate valentines day.. I thought for myself as usual.. but honestly you have changes it a bit for me.
At school, the day before the 14th of February.
" Why most they stand in the middle of the fucking corridor and make out, like that all the time?!!" Samantha said low so only I and Emmah could here it. We nodded in agreement. It was a little annoying, they just had to stand there, ugh.. sometimes I just hate my classmates..." do you guys know what's the only good thing about valentine is. The day after, the chocolate is much cheaper" I said and looked at my friends.
"That's soo true Rebecca! You can just buy so much chocolate and eat it for yourself, because we're forever alone" Samantha said and I smiled at her response. " Well expect you then" Andrea nodded at me. Well she had right, sadly I had a boyfriend, who didn't talk to me since December. I wanted to tell him I wanted to break up, but the problem was that he didn't answer on his phone. I didn't like him anymore and I thought that would be most fair for him if we break up because, I was in love with my best friend.
As usual you saw that I thought about something, because I was quite and did something with my eyes I only do when I think. So you open your mouth to speak again "Ey becca what are you thinking about?" She looked...confused...no.. questionly at me with narrowed eyebrows. Oh god Lord her eyes was so beautiful brown..I couldn't tell her what was going on in my mind, so I told her " eh...nothing...." I breathed slowly out and was thankful for that the teacher came and our lesson started.
After that I decided that I most break up with David and that some day I will tell Samantha how I actually feel for her...but not now...
A/N : soo it's been a while since I updated and i will try my hardest to do my best and I'm so sorry for the late update. The school have taken over my life..But again soo sorry and I hope you like this chapter, and please please please, comment/vote or just mail me what YOU think about it! Til later, hugs to ya all! N/A
~izzy ♥
ESTÁS LEYENDO
Afraid of my feelings for you
Randomso this is just something I just really had to write down, because..I was bored and......yea i just need to.
