Not the real me (On Hold)

chapter 6

"uhh.. hey, Ralph?"

i had no other choice. Lizzie just went home, my mom and dad are in Europe and i have no other friends, thus; RALPH. 

"oh, hey Lizzie" ralph said his voice sounding a bit more clear now

"yeah hi.." i whispered. i didnt know what to do and by each second i felt more and more scared. I suddenly remembered the accident and I felt the tears in my eyes coming out.

"hey.. i know we just met awhile ago but.." i trailed off still unsure if i should continue, but i couldnt help it anymore.. my hands were shaking now 

"but?" he asked

"would you mind if you could come here?" i said my voice thick as i tried my best to hold back a sob.

"first date and already calling me over huh?" he chuckled. but then i guess he figured it was serious "whats the matter? are you alright?" he asked like he actually cared

"just please come quick if you can" i whispered then ended the call

i got into my bed and covered myself with my blanket as i tried to calm myself but couldnt help gasping every once in awhile.

I prayed. prayed that this moment would end. prayed that those memories would vanish. prayed that everything would be okay.

i couldnt hold it any longer as i let my tears fall down and my voice as low as a whisper as i cried, terrified of what might happen. that the night of horror that happened before might happen again.

I was too scared. too scared. too scared.

I heard the door banging and thats when i stayed still. very still that i didnt even breathe. keeping myself real quiet as i slowly, almost tiptoe-ing, through the living room.

knock. knock. bang. bang. i was shaking as i went through the door and i heard a voice. a voice that i never thought would be so camlming, so.. so..

"Jewel! are you there? is everything alright?! Jewel! Jewel!" Ralph shouted while banging on the door. i finally managed mysef to go near the door and open it, my hands still shaky.

when i finally managed to open the door and look into Ralphs worried eyes my body suddenly calms down,  heart beats into a normal pace and suddenly everythings normal again. Ralph comes near me and i just stand still. He asks me something like "are you okay?" or "whats wrong" as i read his mouth but i cant hear anything. its like a plastic bag has covered my head. my eye sights gets blurry and all i can see, clear that is, is Ralph. until everything goes Black

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I wake up as i feel the light in my eyes. i didnt close the curtains. i think.

then i feel something heavy over my stomache, realizing this was unfamiliar to me my eyes widened as fright comes right through making me think worst-case-scenario's in my mind.

1. while i was asleep. a man came in through my window and took advantage of me.

2. a man was hiding in my closet the whole time, waiting for me to come out of the bathroom to attack me

3. Lizzie's dad thought it would be a nice revenge to--

the little bubbles of WCS's pop as i hear a familiar chuckle and i felt the heavy thing get off of my stomache. I try hard not to peek open my eyes because i was just too scared to see an unfamiliar face.. it could also be Lizzie but.. no.. then the person chuckles again as it turned into a laugh and now i just feel annoyed by the noise and i open my eyes just to see a very attractive face looking at me, amusement in his eyes. and i just stare. stare. stare.