Loved You [USUK vs FrUK]

Loved You

Dear Angleterre,

I am so sorry for this. I've been trying so hard- I just couldn't do it. Alright let me start from the begin. I've always loved you. I hope that doesn't surprise you. Even when we were very young I knew I belonged with you. Sure I was a little older than you but that didn't matter to me- all that mattered to me was your safty. I knew that you had a hard time and your brothers always bullied you- I tried to be kind but there is something about your personality that makes me just want to punch you in the face. Through out history I've loved you, even with all of our battles. When I kissed you on Normandy beach during World War 2 I thought things might change. You shot me down, when I proposed you shot me down too. It's alright, I had thought, you'll come around eventually. Then you started dating America, I would be lying if I said I wasn't jealous. But I smiled and said I was happy for you because I was happy to see you truly happy. I became a background in your life, that was alright- we have an eternity for you to change your mind. The day I got an invitation to your wedding I locked myself in my room, it was out of self pity of course. I layed on my bed staring at the ceiling trying to figure out where I had gone wrong- when you had stopped being mine. Then it dawned upon me, you had never been mine. I had always been yours. You hadn't know, how could you have. I tried so hard to hide it- I guess I must have done a pretty good job of it. I went to the wedding for you, I'd do anything for you. Walking you down the aisle was a bittersweet sort of hilarious. I when I handed you off to America you looked so happy and in that moment I knew that was how you were going to spend an eternity, in another man's arms. I smiled, there was a light behind your eyes, I light that you never used on me. I wonder if anyone noticed that I was hurting. I don't think they did. No one takes time to notice the way I'm feeling. I'm not complaining- none of us really care about eachother. Well you care about America and America and I care about you, but that is about it. I promised my self, you being with America wouldn't break me. I wanted to keep living I really did but soon after the wedding I lost all drive to live. My people started worrying about me, they could see something was wrong. They wanted to help me, I hope that you will thank them for me. I promised myself I would try to keep living, for at least a few thousand years. I tried but I couldn't, thinking about living an existence in which you just ignored me hurt to much. I tried and tried but I guess I always have been weak. I hope my death won't inconvenience you any. Don't ever blame yourself for my death, you are not the reason I'm dead, I am. I couldn't get over you because it is my personality- its my fault I couldn't move on. I'm giving everything I own to you. I don't mean for this to get in the way of your and America's relationship. I just don't trust anyone else to take care of my people. France will just become another one of your common wealths. It has been an honor to love you. I hope that your life is filled with joy and that America treats you well (I know he will). I will be happier where I am. Tell Italy I am drinking wine with Grampa Rome now. Don't spend time being sad about my death, god knows I've spent enough time for the both of us.

Je t'aime et au revoir,

Francis Bonnefoy