Scatter (BxB)

Chapter 2

Chapter 2 :Past

When I say it didn't hurt doesn't mean that I'm fine.

When I didn't cry , doesn't mean it didn't hurt.

It just my heart has block all the sorrow in order for me to survive.Leaving a shell that is empty inside just like a star that had lost it shine , roaming in the empty space without any direction and yet nobody notice because to them as long there's star that keep shining it's doesn't matter.

In matter of fact they don't even care .

Just like a smile that is put in the face.

Nobody know what it's really mean until somebody really cares enough to reach out for the answer.

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"Why do chemistry have to be so hard"
I sigh looking at my chemistry test apparently getting twenty mark isn't enough to past the test,of course not obviously.

We are at the cafeteria while I 'm busy regretting my choice of life .My friends are busy talking about the new guy kinda explains the crowd of girl this morning.What they said his name again, Xavier I think.I decided to join them, it isn't like I have better thing to do by the way rather than being depressed because of a piece of paper.

"What are your guys talking about by the way"I asked while my full attention are at them actually half of it as half of it is at the fries I'm eating .

"So like I was saying about this new guy in our school ,his in our grade but most importantly he is fucking hot!He used to live around this area actually but the funny thing is not many know about it."she said with the glint of excitement in her eyes .

" How do you know a lot about him ,he hasn't been in school for even a day."I asked ,I mean how in the world she know this in a couples of hours.

"Oh my !sweet Sirius ,of course I know I'm part of the HPO"she said while patting my head."HPO?" I asked and she frown her eyebrows and look at me like I'm the weird one here.

"HPO stand for Hot Person Organisation, it's have all the information and details about all of the hot student in this school."John continue without batthing an eye and I look at one friend that I thought at least normal or so do I thought .

"What! The organisation give the latest updates of hot girls and boys ,its a sin not to join.Not only that the HPO even provide pictures of them that only available for member only."He said while sipping his drink.

"Plus he is also on the Beach Volleyball .Oh I can't wait to see those abs..."Kiera said dreamily."You should have see his blue eyes ! It's like I can swim in there forever."Kiera said and both of them just squealed like a bunch of girls .

"I choked of my fries, seriously guys.You guys have behaving like a teenage girls who are talking about their crush."I said while trying not to die by choking .

"Come on Sirius you have to take a break , it's not wrong to adriming boy from time to time eventhought you're busy."Kiera said while patting my shoulder.

"Exactly!You have to loosen up a bit,you always tired yourself out with school work and the shop ,you don't even have time for yourself. Ever since your parents passed away you always busy taking care your siblings that you don't even have time for yourself".John said .

Only my family and them knew about my sexuality,I didn't really have hard time telling my family as they okay with it and accept as I am.While as for my friend it isn't that hard either as they figured it on themselves ,they called it friend intuitions.

Kiera and John are also one of the few people who knew about my family situation including few others people.They are always supportive of me and always by my side when I need them.In fact, Kiera and John family have always support us with all they can.Our family are close and our parents used to hang out all the time,they even used to take care of me and my sibling back then when we were still a child ,while my parents are busy with the shop thus explain how I easily became best friend with both of them.