Chapter 5 :Living
I don't feel like living but I don't feel like dying either.
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Today ,I'm helping Ela in the flower shop while Mosa handle the cafe.We often switch our duty because Mosa knows that I love handling flowers very much.I was supposed to take care of the flower shop with her actually if not for the fact that Ela can't cook nor bake .So Mosa make this arrangement for me .
I smile looking at the flower arrangement that I just make , Ela said a customer make the order yesterday and they will pick it up today .Its consists of pink carnation that mean I will not forget ,pink Camellia that ignite that you miss someone , blue Salvia meaning of thinking of you and Forget-me-not flower which literally meant forget-me-not.Yeah !I know the irony,anyway anyone who's give this bouquet of flowers must love the other person so much.
I finished the bouquet with a ribbon and a card that have 'For you ' written on it .I wish someone will do that for me and suddenly I 'm thinking of Xavier.Wait!!! Nope! Nadaa !Not gonna happen !Like never!
All of sudden ,the door opened showing Xavier with a black hoodie and ripped black jeans.
Wow!How can anybody look good without even trying . I mean wait ! ! !
What the heck is he doing here.Keep it cool Sirius !Keep it cool!
"Excuse me,is anyone here? "
I was ready to hide in the back and wait for Ela to do it but unfortunately she was too busy arranging the flowers for other order,so she tell me to do it. Great!!
"Yes ,can I help you? " I said trying to sound normal as I can .
"Umm , I ....." he stop mid way when our eyes meet .
"Ooo ,hey !"
"Hi ! " I said back.
" I don't know you work here." He said while scratching his neck.
"Yeah ! My family kinda own this shop ," he nod while mouthing " i see".
"So...how can I help you?"
"Ooh yeah ! I want to take the bouquet I order yesterday under the name of Canis ." He said the name softly.
"Wait ! Canis? "
"Yeah! That my middle name my mom name it after a star hoping that the baby will be blessed with individuality, independence, and self-confidence ," he said with a smile
" That a nice name and its works looking at you now." I said without realize.
" No I mea-n .." I shuttered
" Thank you ! That means a lot to me !" He said cutting me off with a smiling face.
"You're welcome! Oh yeah ! Your flower ,please wait for a minute." I quickly take the flower bouquet and giving it to him.
" Here you go ! "
"Thanks! " He said back
" See you later then ! " he said waving me goodbye after paying .
"See you !" I wave back at him until he left the shop, wondering who's the flower for .
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After I waved Sirius goodbye ,my heart felt calm like a gush of wind in the wide ocean.Empty but full...cold but warm ....alone but not lonely.
Looking at the bouquet of flowers at my hands ,smiling to myself remembering the smile of his faces and how red his ears get when he's shy.
Thinking about him make my heart full of warmth like hot and chill like autumn in fall. A bit dramatic I know but that what I felt whenever I met him.
I don't know how to describe it but... it's make me felt like it's okay to be feeling it again.. like it's okay to felt this way ....to feel happy
Years ago....
"Mom !Look at this I found this flower near the lake, it's for you !"
"Thank you sweetheart!"
"Do you like it?"
"Hmmm...I don't like it..."Xavier was close to crying
"I love it!" He's mother finished while swiping him out of the floor and hugging him tightly earning a giggled from Xavier.
" Then ,I will keep giving a lot and lots of flower as many as you want ." Xavier said with euthasim.
"Really!I am honoured !" putting her hand on his chest the atmosphere was fill with their laughter .
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It's okay right mother! I carefully put the bouquet of flowers on my mother grave , smiling at it while carefully touching the stone that have my mother name crave on it.
"It's okay to be happy again right " I smile knowing that she will not be able to answer me ...not anymore.
Sorry! if it's too short!I will be a bit busy after this so I want to update as soon as possible eventhought if its short.So thank you for anyone who's reading.I will be busy after this so I donno how long its take when I'm gonna update again .
Hope you enjoy!(ʘᴗʘ✿)
WARNING !! IT'S FULL OF GRAMMAR ERRORS!
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Teen FictionSirius Aldebaran is a normal teenage boy with a not so normal name and his family runs a flower shop in the small town .He live a normal life with a loving family until one day that change it all .He began to lost hope and give up all of his dre...
