The move to the better *Kian lawley and Sam pottorff fanfic*

Chapter 12 - Feelings? nah

Kian came at the exact time he were supposed to. I was done, so I took my steve madden wedges and my phone, an then walked downstairs. Mom had opened the door for kian and they stood there talking when I got down. I smiled at kian and I hugged him. We were just going to walk out when my mom cut us off guard.

-        WAIT. Give me your phone luce, so I can take a picture of you guys!

-        Oh ok… I said and gave her my phone. Kian put his hand round my waist and we smiled into the camera.

-        ADOREBLE. Here hunny, have a good time! She said and waved to us when we walked to kians car.

-        Let me see the picture! Kian said and I showed it too him. It wasn’t that bad.

-        You look stunning! He said and smiled at me. I blushed.

-        Youre not so bad either. I said, and he laughed.

-        Thanks I guess. He said and a smile spread on his lips. He started the car and started driving to his house.

He led me to his couch and we sat down.

-        So heres the thing. The food got burnt… like really bad. So I ordered pizza. He was a bit embarrassed. It was cute.

-        Awww, its okey kian! I love pizza. I said and laughed.

-        Who doesn’t? at that exact moment he said this, the doorbell rang. Kian told me to wait and went for the door. I could hear him talk to someone, I guessed it was the pizza guy. Kian closed the door and walked inside with the pizza again.

-        Lets eat in my room instead? My mom will be home soon…

-        Yeah sure! So we walked to his room and sat down on the bed instead. He had Arizona with him too. We started eating the big round very eatable pizza, it was delicious.

-        I want to kiss you. Kian blurted out. I looked at him with a questioning look on my face. “well im not really protesting am i?”  He got the hint and crawled over to my side of the bed. He stopped when his face was about a couple of inches apart from mine. I smiled. He cupped my chin with his soft big hands and leaned in. I responded immediately and his tongue soon asked for entrance, which I approved. I put hand round his neck and rolled over so I was on top of him. He laughed and held my body close to his while he still had his lips on mine. I smiled, thinking about how soft his lips were, they were perfect against mine. Kian started taking my top off, I was really insecure about my body, but right in this moment I didn’t care. Kain were special and I wanted him. He pushed me over so I was under him instead, which led to me taking his shirt off. He Pressed his lips to my neck and gently sucked while I rubbed my hands on his stomach, carefully taking in that he had such sexy abs. he kept kissing my jawline and then placing kisses down my neck and all the way to the top of my breasts. He was amazing. I had never felt like this before, no one had treated me like this before. And I liked it.

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“I like you you know.” Kians soft voice spoke. I looked up from his chest and into his eyes. He looked at me with this happiness I had never seen before. “I like you too.” I said smiling at his statement. He looked around, placing his hand on my waist instead of my shoulder where it had been before. He looked at my with a different gaze now, it said sadness and guilt could be read over his whole face.

“what…?” I asked, wanting him to tell me what was wrong. “Lucinda… I really need to tell you something. It isnt the right moment right now and i know that, bu-“ he got cut off, his eyes wide looking at my arm. He sat up and took my wrist in his hands, he looked up into my eyes and then on my wrist again. He had seen my scars.

“whats this?”

“you know what it is.” I said coldly, took my hand back to hide the ugly scars. That I was naked exposed where I sat on his bed didn’t cross my mind, that he was naked didn’t either. He didn’t say anything, just cupped my chin in his hands and leaned in and kissed me softly and fast. He lay down again and I lie down next to him, face to face. I didn’t want to talk about it but I knew he wanted to.

“Why?” I looked away when he asked me that, wasn’t it obvious? He took my chin in his hand so that I looked at him.

“you can tell me”

“It was Jacob. You know he beat me, and I didn’t do it because of that at first. But when he also cheated on me… it got too much. I just couldn’t handle it I guess.” I said, not a single tear in my eyes. I couldn’t cry infront of kian, right after sex? And, I never cried about stuff. I was an emotionless bastard that didn’t express her feelings in public, or with anyone around. I guess I was that girl that was crying inside but smiling outside.

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A/N OK SO I KNOW I SUCK AT LOVE SCENES. BUT, the next couple of chapters will be gooooooood. yes gooooood. and this is short because i suck at love scenes ok. I suck at then, its horrible.

About spotify, please share! i have one list with about 700 songs and one with 100. (Music is just my life ok?) So ill give mine if poeple give theirs. :D

i like all music - acustic,emo, punkpop, punk rock, pop, a little metal. yes im a cool and accepting girl ok.

and sorry for the short chapter, gonna post the next one asap, FUN THINGS WILL HAPPEN.