Once In A Blue Moon | Minsung Fic | On-Going

Chapter 1 : I got my grades today ; R.I.P my holidays !! pt .1

Jisung POV

I sighed and continued reading fanfics like any other teenage boy during online school ... Well not everyone .... Its currently break and my dad and mom arent at home and I'm a lonely child ... Its a curse and a blessing uGH !! Well today is a monday and my exams got over so no more tutions since summer holidays are coming ... BUT my grades aren't as good , you see I was never the kid to get straight A's but I managed to get A's along with maybe a few B's ... well this time oh no ... It went all wrong ... Its online school , entering highschool during covid going around made things and especially studies a HUNDRED TIMES HARDER ... Like tell me- who can sit at a device for a straight 8 hours ... without using the internet .. disregarding the fact its not only me who does it ... I spend almost all my time watching youtube...more specifically kpop.... I got into kpop when I was really young because of my best friend ... He showed me BTS 'Not Today' , We both became fans but he soon left the fandom and kpop in general ... He started hating it ... Well what can I do... Its his opinion ... Anyways ... I got my grades and they werent good at all ... I mean they were bad ... I go for tution yet my grades went bad ... I was scared for my life when I saw my grades ... knowing I might either get disowned , shouted at , ignored , maybe they'll ban things I love ...

I spent 2 hours straight crying cause I didn't know what was gonna happen...I knew i shouldve studied ... But I didnt .. I KNEW THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN ... yet i shoved the thought back...I have no right to cry or feel sad .. ITS MY FAULT .... then why am I crying .... im not supposed to ... 

My dad came home and I was still in class ... I have just got my vaccine that day ... so he went out somewhere for smthg I don't know ... But he's always busy when I try to talk to him so-

I was gonna wait till tomorrow to tell him ... But I knew that I'd feel guilty for hiding it even for the shortest ... so I told him .... He didnt say anything and continued watching TV ... He said "Im disappointed and you know that"... I went inside into my room and silently looked at myself in the mirror as tears rolled down my cheeks ... I brushed it off again knowing it was my fault ... I attended classes and by the time my dad went to sleep cause he was tired ... its more like he always sleeps in the afternoon  .... School was gonna end in 30 mins ... and guess what I saw .... 'Parental Restricted Access' .... Thats when I lost it ... I left class CAUSE I COULDNT EVER ACCESS THE INTERNET ... I shut down everything as calmly as I could and jumped face down unto my bed crying noting caring abt anything else....I switched on the AC got my plushie and engulfed myself into my blanket crying and basically just crying while thoughts inside my head were like 

' Why did I not study .. I knew this would happen '

' Its my fault '

' kpop used to help me , now its distracting me '

' i deserve it '

' yes you do '

' I'm good at nothing '

' Im a failure '

' you deserve it failure '

It didn't stop but it went on for 3 hours ... Until I heard the door open ... I sat up straight quickly rubbed my faced trying to not make it look like I've been crying like an idiot  ... I ran out putting the fakest smile on my face and said Hi to my mom ... " HII!!! " ... She said "Has your voice changed ?? Getting a cold because of the vaccine or smthg??? " ... The human locked in my body laughed .. " Prolly i dont know ... doesnt it happen always when you take a vaccine? " I said knowing that Its just cause i was crying the whole time my voice changed and became more hoarse ... I then told her that I had to do some work and left to go to my room ... My happy expression dropping as soon as I did ... I slumped down on my chair ... wondering how should I break it to my mom ... 

TBC

weLL THIS WAS ONLY THE INTRO LIKE BASICALLY THE BASE ... my dad came home so I cant risk him seeing this since I'm doing this during school hourssss- But ILL UPLOAD AGAIN- WHEN I GET INSPO ANDDDD prolly tomorrow cant promise tho-

and yeet BAIII