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Loss (Buckin)

Tw: Mentions of  suicide   

I can't do this anymore I thought to myself while walking up to the end of the pier. while looking at the waves and saw how calm they where and I sat down at the bench and started to play the song. I had wrote it a couple of days ago after Phil and Jonny came to check on me. 

Why did I tell them I was ok. I should have told them to stay. Why did she do this to me?. I Loved her and all she did was break my heart. 

As I started to sing My thoughts crowded me in corner. I am stuck and they aren't going to stop Why is this happening to me I just want them to go Away. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE IM ALL ALONE AND NOBODY IS GOING TO SAVE ME!. My body screams at me. As it gets worse i hear a voice. jump.....Jump.....JUmp......JUMp.....JUMP....... The voices got louder and Pain overtook my body as I got up I said to myself "Why me, what did i do do deserve this, Nobody cares about me" as I climbed to the edge and looked down at the calm Water as I left a note on my guitar For Jonny and the guys. After one last breath I jumped into the cold water and sank down without struggling. I finally feel free. 

*the next day*

Jonny Pov 

Where is he?!, I ask myself as I haven't heard from him in a couple of hours and this is the normal time we talk to each other. After a Hour I was really Worried as he wasn't answering my text. After I called Phil, Guy And Will and they didn't even know where Chris was. Then A random Number Appeared on my Phone. 

Those words. Those Words I never wanted to hear When it came to Chris. 

"Hello is This Jonny Buckland" The voice said 

"This is him how may I help you" I replied 

"I Am so sorry to tell you this but-" 

As the person said  those words I Knew what had happened and that I had lost the love of my life and friend, After the phone hung up I fell to the floor Gasping for air as I Felt that my heart had been ripped out of my Body As I screamed in Fear and pain . "NO NOT HIM PLEASE LET THIS BE A NIGHTMARE" As I screamed with all the pain inside in my body until  I couldn't  Anymore. 

Today was the day that I lost Him, The day I lost Christopher Anthony John Martin Forever.

*A few hours later Jonny gets the letter and Chris's guitar and reads What Chris wrote. *

*this is the letter Chris wrote*

"Dear Jonny, Guy, Will and Phil" 

" if you're reading this I'm so sorry I left you and I'm sorry I was a failure"

" I couldn't take it anymore, the thoughts in my head where too strong and i couldn't take it anymore"

" I love you guys so much and thank you for being amazing Friends" 

"And I'm Sorry, Jonny I Love you more than words can say and I'm Sorry for not telling you sooner" 

" I wish I had told you in person, And I wish I had kissed you " 

"Tell my family I love them"

Chris. 

After Reading That he loved me I sobbed Trying to get the huge Lump of pain that was in my chest As my heart was torn into shreds After Reading That letter. 

After I Found Some pictures of me and Chris and with rage Growing inside of me I destroyed the Place We  called home. 

*Later that night Guy, Will and Phil check on Jonny Only to find Him and Chris's place messy and glass Shattered Everywhere* 

Phil pov 

As we walked into Jonny And Chris's House we saw everything Broken and glass shattered Everywhere and as we walked upstairs We heard What sounded like Jonny Sobbing and heard a Click Noise in Which it sounded like a gun. 

"PHIL LEAVE ME ALONE!"  Jonny said as he heard our foot steps ''JONNY STOP IT PLEASE IT'S NOT WORTH IT WE CAN'T LOSE SOMEOME ELSE!" I screamed "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND" he said while sobbing "IT HURTS TOO MUCH PHIL I SHOULD HAVE HELPED HIM!'' As Jonny cried harder which only made me cry.

''Jonny Please Chris wouldn't want you to do this Jonny I know your hurting but so are we and we miss him but we need to stick together, Chris Would need us to do this PLEASE!. We all Pleaded at this point and It worked.

Jonny Pov 

As I heard Phil Say that I put the gun down and opened the Bathroom door And Will, Phil, And Guy pulled me into a hug As we all Sobbed But I Knew somewhere deep Down in my heart I knew  that we needed each other and we couldn't lose anyone else. We all realized we need each other in this time of Grief 

A/N: So this one hut a lot, While writing I had to take a break as this Hurts A lot.