Contigo; ask me to stay (carmuel fic)

Obsession

In this alternate reality, Guzman and Ander stay at Las Encinas. I didn't fully watch season 4 as I couldn't bear watching Samuel be with anyone else who wasn't Carla. But many of the things that happened in season 4 still occurred. However, I made minor changes where Guzman never broke up with Nadia neither did Guzari happen, blech. Also, let me know if you're fine with me converting Guzman to Islam so he and Nadia can truly be together, as it is forbidden to marry out of religion. But whatever is fine.

Whatsapp; 

Encineros

Lu: Congratulations on graduating... a year late

...

Lu: putas, I was joking even though it's true.

Samuel: Gracias Lu

Nadia: I am so proud of you guys. Now we can finally all meet 

Guzman: In New York??

Lu: No, we will come to you guys; when are you guys free.

Guzman: I am free whenever. I got two months to spare.

Lu: Ander??? Omar?? Samuel??? Rebeka??? Caye??

Omar:  Ander and I are free, but it depends on the timing, considering that we have to work to earn a living.

Nadia: Shut up, Omar, take a day off.

Caye: It depends on the days as well for me

Rebeka: I am free but can Mencia come?

Lu: Who?

Guzman: Oh, we forgot to tell you Rebe is bi, and she is dating Mencia, the directors' daughter.

Omar: that son of a bitch gave Samuel a full-ride scholarship to London

Nadia: London?!

Lu: joder, Samu 

Rebeka: Blondie is there? isn't she?

Lu: yeah, I was recently talking to her. Samu, did you tell her?

Samuel: No, I have not, and I would respect it if you guys didn't tell her

Lu: Are you sure? She doesn't say it, but whenever your name is brought up, her whole demeanour changes; she misses you.

Samuel: Yeah, well, she should've thought about that before leaving me.

Samuel: shit, sorry that was rude. I will talk to her. I need time to think. I miss her too, but things can't be the same, and she herself said that we aren't meant to be. So let me adjust to the normalcy that I will see her every day, but we won't be together.

Lu: remember to talk to her, please.

Carla's POV:

I have finally finished my freshman year of college. I wanted to go back to Spain but my parents said that I should stay here in London and get used to being in a new country. I have been here for almost a year I feel like I have adapted enough, but at the same time, I oblige as there is so no reason to go back anyway. Like my family is there but I don't have any friends left and I am not going to spend an entire summer locked away in my house with them. I am also trying to delay the inevitable as long as I possibly can, which is seeing Samuel. We haven't talked at all other than some occasional birthday wishes but they never got coursed into an actual conversation. I understand us both pulling back but, I let my walls down with him and I told him I love him. I didn't get anything back in response other than just two blue checkmarks. I feel like we should talk, get some closure and clear the air. Like I may not have any friends who I will consider close but I still had people I could converse with through small talk and those are the same people he is friends with. So, him and I seeing each other is not impossible it is very much likely. 

I started doing my laundry and clearing the apartment of unnecessary things until I got a call from Lu.

Lu: Ay Carla, are you busy?

Carla: Not really, w-

Lu: We need to talk...

Carla: about what? what happened?

Lu: It's about sa- s- Never mind, I should go pack. 

Carla: About who? Pack? Are you visiting Madrid for the summer?

Lu: Yeah, on the  'Whatsapp 'group chat we are all planning to have a mini-reunion.

Carla: Oh, I left that group chat after I left Las Encinas

Lu: Are you going to come?

Carla: Well I can not make it right now as I still have to settle in London and get used to the atmosphere and the English language. But, I will visit you in New York. (I lied)

Lu: Carla, darling, you're not fooling anyone when you say that it is clearly evident you are just trying to avoid Samuel. But, hey, it is your choice, anyways I have to go. I will call you later.

Carla: Bye!

I couldn't wait to get off that call. Despite Lu and I being distant, she knows me well. I am being pretty immature but how can I see him after telling him that I'll love him forever even if we aren't meant to be. It is pretty embarrassing and I get second-hand embarrassment from remembering who I was. If I could only be smarter and stronger I would be able to go but I just can't. Remembering those seven days where it was just secluded to us is very numbing as I just left and let those moments slip away. In the voice note, I meant it when I said I didn't regret anything but it still pains me to remember. I had a horrific time during those last two years in Las Encinas and when he came running to stop me from going to London I forgot about everything. Being within proximity of Samuel was a drug that relaxed me, it was even better than the molly I took. I was able to indulge in his scent and now all my clothes are washed away of that scent. What once brought me exhilaration and peace now brings me heartache and pain. 

It is similar to Dawsons creek when Pacey told Joey that his whole life was a smudged mirror but when she came through his door the smudges were gone and the mirror was clean. I felt that about Samuel and I knew he felt the same as he told me the exact line word for word in his bed last year. It made me smile but I didn't say anything then just look up from his chest to stare deep into his eyes. 

I rest my eyes for a while after cleaning my apartment and I scroll through Instagram, Guzman and Nadia posted a picture that made me smile as they are both madly in love with each other. I also go through people's stories and I see that everyone posted a picture at an airport, a way of symbolizing that they're going home. But I see that Samuel posted a photo at an airport which is surprisingly familiar. I scroll past but I straighten up my body and find the courage to reply to his story. I ask him if he is seeing his family in Morocco. Several minutes go by and I scoff at myself for caring where he is going so I distract myself.

NOTES:

Hey! So, this is my first time actually writing fanfiction. My apologies if this chapter wasn't long but I have a lot of ideas planned out for this. I will update as regularly as I can(expect at least two to three new chapters in a week). I am not entirely sure about the number of chapters I want and the length of each chapter but I will see how they play out. This chapter is rather quite dry and stale so my bad but hoped you enjoyed it :)