Caught My Falling Star

Cutting, Pain?

Skylers POV

I see two Shawn's? One looked nicer to me and the other looked at me with no feeling. At the same time they asked me who do you like better. I chose the nicer looking one. Then all of a sudden the other Shawn came up to me and said how dare you, after what I've done for you!
I woke up and I knew I had a bad dream. I stayed in my covers and got my phone. It was 6:38. After that I went on some apps like, Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat and Minecraft. After I went on all of those apps I checked the time and it was 9:42. I went to my bathroom and stared into the mirror. Am I anything without Shawn? Do I love him? Do I need him? Questions came popping in my head quickly. I got those out of my head and I splashed water on my face. I then brushed my teeth and ate. I ignored MATT and VV. They were all lovey Dover again and I hated that because I don't anyone to do that to. It always made me feel lonely. I am really happy for VV because she said she was Prego as I call it. I don't know but it's been like what, 3 months. I am exited to be ______(I don't know what she would be. Example: My cousins daughter, what would I be called?)
I am happy for them and they said that they would be moving out. I will be all alone then. The thought of that made me want to scream. I held it in like usual. No one cared, I am all alone. Shawn would have been with me when I was alone. Now he's out with this slutty girl. I walked slowly upstairs and went in my bathroom. I locked the door and looked though the drawers until I came up to my new friend... The blade. I was shaking afraid to do it. I placed the cold ice blade on my wrist and I thought would this help? The blade wasn't making me bleed but it was on my wrist.

"Hey, Skyler! Are you okay?" That scared me and my hand moved and I cut myself! It hurts so much. I got up and said I was fine. I got some tissue and I wrapped it around my arm. After that I got some more tissues and I hid my wrist in my sweater pocket. I pretend to flush the toilet and unlocked the door to see Shawn there. I felt my blood dripping, I rushed him out and sighed. The cut was small but it bled so much. It stopped bleeding and I put 2 band aids on it because one bandaid wouldn't fit. If they asked I'll lie I was cooking.

SORRY SUPER SHORT CHAPTER ONLY BECAUSE IM BUSY WITH MATH! BUT ILL HAVE A NEW CHAPTER PUBLISHED IN A WEEK DEPENDING ON HOW MUCH HOMEWORK I HAVE. ALSO IM STARTING SOCCER WHICH WOULD LEAVE ONLY A LITTLE AMOUT OF SELF TIME.