drugs n hella melodies

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arizona
"you're not coming?" i said quietly over the phone.

"nah" billie told me. "i have things to do"

"you said you didn't and now you do?" i scoffed while throwing some of my stuff on the floor. "i got ready and i've been waiting for you ever since two billie. that's two hours!"

"sorry" she mumbled. "i gotta go"

she quickly hung up on me without saying bye or anything. gosh, why do i do this to myself?

i don't understand though.

billie was the one who told me she wanted to take me out. she told me to get ready and wait for her at a specific time. she told me she was gonna come get me. she told me she wasn't busy yesterday.

she told me she didn't have anything to do.

and now she's busy?

i waited for her, i sent her a couple texts, and called her a few times. she didn't answer any of my messages so i waited for her.

when an hour passed, i called her, she didn't fucking answer. two hours, i call her again and she doesn't answer. i called her one more time and that's when she did.

it seemed like she forgot honestly, i don't know but it does.

i was waiting for her man... like i always do.

i'm tired of her shit

i changed into an oversized t-shirt and put on a pair of shorts. if i'm not gonna go anywhere anymore, what's the fucking point?

i'm a bit aggravated.

i just don't understand how you tell someone and make plans with them and then completely forget the next day!

fuck dude, ever since you know... i let her take my virginity or whatever she's been acting so weird.

she was so gentle and sweet that day and now she's just a bitch again!

i'm still attached to this bitch though. like extremely attached... i have a stupid crush on her and i hate it.

my feelings grow a little more every time she gives me the slightest bit of attention after she hasn't for a whole day or two.

it's like a fire.

at first it's big and after a while it starts to die down because there's no more wood. but after you add more wood to it, it grows again.

that's what billie does to me.

i'm the fire and shes the wood.

i'm the power, she's the fuse.

i hate it

"hi koda" i let out a small chuckle when she opened my door and came in. "what do you want girl?"

koda got on my bed and laid down. her big ass takes up half of my bed. i find it funny how she thinks she's a lap dog despite how big she is.

i don't have anything else to do rather than be home alone with my dogs.

aubrey and mom are out doing their thing.

i could've gone with them, but i told mom i was going out with billie... look how that went lol.

fuck man