drugs n hella melodies

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arizona
billie hasn't talked to me at all ever since she found out aubrey thinks we're dating.

she's been ignoring all my texts and calls...

gosh, i shouldn't have never gotten so attached to her. like dude it's like i'm in love with this bitch! that's why i'm so sad and annoyed over this whole situation!

i hate how she fucking does this shit all the time.

i don't understand why she got upset over aubrey thinking we're dating.

it's not that big of a deal honestly.

just imagine ghosting someone because their little sister thinks yall are dating.

how fucking stupid is that?

plus i though she liked my little sister, but after her saying rude shit about her nah dude.

"you haven't talked about billie in a while" kai poked my cheek.

"fuck that bitch" i mumbled.

"what happened?" she asked me.

"so aubrey thought we were dating and she literally got mad over that shit" i scoffed as i shook my head. "can you believe that?"

"getting mad because someone who is six years old thinks you two are dating?" kai made a face. "what kind of shit is that?"

"right!" i laughed. "like she got so defensive too!"

"are you done with her?"

"mmm" i looked down and giggled.

"jesus ari" kai sighed and smacked my leg. "stop being a dumbass and getting your feelings hurt!"

"leave me alone" i mumbled as i smacked her back. "you know that i'm really attached to that bitch..."

"no, why are you though?" she raised a brow up and smirked. "is it because she gives you free drugs"

"wellll..." i made a face. "she's uh- she was my first everything..."

"what do you mean by that?" kai asked me.

"you can't be that stupid kai" i sent her a look and she gasped.

"no way!" kai's jaw dropped. "so she like... yall fucked and shit?"

"yeah" i said quietly and blushed. "we did..."

"oh my god?" she laughed and got quiet. "you're really hurt aren't you?"

"yeah" i sighed. "i don't know why i'm so sad over this"

"do you like her?" kai asked me.

"isn't it obvious?" i mumbled while i punched my bed. "i like her a lot"

"would you say that you're maybe in love with her?" she looked at me seriously and i just shrugged in response. "is that a yes or a no ari?"

"i don't know" i shrugged again. "billie is just so... she makes me feel so ahhh"

"what is that supposed to mean?" kai snorted.

"well again, isn't it obvious?" i groaned while letting myself fall back on my bed. "the other day she was like 'iS iT bEcAuSe yOuRe i' loVe wiTh mE' and my dumbass said maybe or maybe not"

"and what did she say?" kai raised a brow and looked at me.

"that i definitely was and i declined it" i shrugged. "i don't think she believed me... and she fucked me after that"