One last time

ONE LAST TIME 1

Lets talk about how cold your touch recently felt,
Please tell me it is'nt over yet!

You were the one i romanticized all my teenage years,
In contrary to which you turned into reality all my fears.

I still feel my feelings entangled around you,
Was an apology so hard to do?

Am I so easy to forget?
Please return to me i dont want any regrets.

I am emotionally exhausted so overwhelmed by our love,
I am craving all our comfort and the fluff.

I dont want to question myself but I promise it was'nt intentional,
One arguement broke us? but this fairytale is'nt conventional.

It pains to remember how beautiful we were together,
Maybe it was'nt enough to keep you forever.

Distancing is'nt always the right thing to do,
Atleast we owed something to the happy moments one or two.

It was a good relationship, but you made me feel like i was toxic,
With you away everything feels so anoxic.

I am sorry If I did'nt acknowledge your efforts,
I will make amends to all your complaints concerned.

Alas you are'nt here to know,
My very heartfelt emotions need now pomp and show.

You leaving has induced in me a very prompting desire to quit,
I resorted to many ways but you did'nt care for the tiniest bit.

My heart aches to the realisation you are no longer in my emotional vicinity ,
Unlikely to what i thought it feels like a calamity,
It's taking away all my patience and sanity.

I am trying so hard to let go of you,
And the hope you will be back is too weak to be true,
My memory is scared and dented with no recruits.

Everthing around constantly reminds me of the time before,
The caresses and understanding is something I still adore,
I can assure if we try it is'nt that hard to restore.

It haunts me to imagine I would no longer tell you how my day was,
Neither would i know how cracked are your math class laws,
Never understood what changed and brought us this pause.

A part of me wants to elope,
The other still awaits new begeining and hope,
Come back! we will deal together there still is scope.

For one last time remind me that you cared,
For one last time communicate what's left to be spared,
For one last time console me I am actually scared.

~Kashish