My life Journey

(1) The departure

As usual I always woke up late , what's really the use of me waking up early and do one and a very same thing I do every day ,I heard rain drops outside my window I stayed in bed a little longer just to listen to that ,. Are you having second thoughts about leaving today daughter..,that my mom walking passed my room of course she woke up earlier than I ,. So today it my last day being home after twenty two year's of staying with my parents ,I love my family dearly I do it just that sometimes one needs a breather that is I yes I'll miss all the fun times we had the memories I'll keep them forever and it not like I'll never come visit again I'll always visit my family. Fetch my two siblings from school bring some groceries home ,My dad isn't really excited about me moving out he says you'll always be my little girl.. ahh dad very sweet but my parents do not understand that one needs to grow and in order for one to grow they'll need to experience life for themselves and see it through their own eyes.
Foot steps on the passage it dad coming to my room, your mother told me your are leaving at 10am that a good choice it not wise going to a place you not familiar with late you need to get there earlier so that you see everything clearly.. I'll take of now I have to go to work I'll call you later ,I already called Vusi he'll help with your moving ; that my dad always caring and loves his family ,so I get up put my robe and accompanied dad to his car hugged him watched him take off .
I went back inside made my sister and brother breakfast and lunch for school ...took them to the bus stop , so we will never see you again sisi ..my eight year old brother ask .... I'll come get you guys at school next week Friday ok little hero , I mean probably my siblings think I'm leaving forever you know how kids .so I go back home to fix my self up and prepare myself to go I take a bath and make sure I dress up as comfortable as I can be. , You need to change your style ,you need to wear like a lady Thembi, you cant always choose comfort wearing jeans and sweater or leggings; no you need to look good like other ladies I mean you'll be working in an office ,that my mother I feel sometimes I disappoint her I mean when she was young she was that girl and here I am not that girl I mean she should understand ! How could I have been like her I'm always in the house my closet would have wore those clothing's because I was always indoors
But anywho what important is for me to excel in my new job and stay focused so that I can fund my new business after all it my life, mom lived hers and it got her here I should also live my life and see where it'll gets me ,at times it difficult to stand up for Myself when it comes to my parents seeing that I might appear as being uncouth but then it not life one has to grow up at some point ,the reason why my parents treat me like a child is because I myself approved of it without a doubt, them making decision for me..it was all me but i had to be brave and tell them it was time I mean it been a Year since I left college I need to be my own person that just how life is if you don't stand up for yourself others will stand up for you and make decisions for you in the end you won't be happy with your life who will you tell ,who will you be pointing fingers at ,and that is why today I'm getting ready to go not that I dislike my parents I love them but If I don't do this it won't end well it scary to go out there but it a must, oh the guy who's helping me move is here so now I'm taking my bags,boxes to the mini truck my mom is helping. the guy is tightening the rope around my bags so that they don't fall off while on our way to my new place it is all kicking in now I'm leaving I'm scared and excited about it...I go upstairs take my last bag ,. Be safe okay call me when you get there ...that my mom I gave her a long hug and kissed her cheek and told her I love her my mom is not perfect but I'm who I am because of her love taking into account that some of my peers have four kids ,ran away from home ,left school ,but my parents supported me and where sincere so I love them ...I looked at my mom I told her I'll call her she even took a day off from work to help me on my special day moving out ...I learned that our parents mean well maybe sometimes they might be strict Abit harsh but they just don't want us making stupid mistake because they just wonder how it will be if we start making those mistake when they are no longer around , My father once told me that it better to be open with your parents so that they might guide and advice you wisely.. I'll never forget that ,actually I'll never forget my parents teachings
As I get inside the truck watching my mom on the side view mirror although it was Abit cracked I could see a woman that wants what best for her daughter as the truck drove off I felt so emotional ,I felt like going back, I felt like crying ...mixed emotions asking myself Thembi what are you doing what do you know apart from being in your room waking up late cleaning , fetching your siblings from school ,you won't be able to handle this just go back to what you know hmm self negative thought started creeping in I said a little prayer , The location please, THEMBI !! I'm so in my Head that I can't even hear the poor driver asking for location so I call my friend her name Faith she's the one I'll be staying with ,I have arrived it so noisy, crowded alot of people in One space but hey welcome to the Big city of Durban