Story of faith

Chapter 3

I spent the rest of the nigh thinking about cian, and today  I'm going to Alannas house so hopefully i might run into him.
I got ready and got dropped to her house, i wont lie i did try a bit more for my appearance thinking about cian.

I was sitting on alannas bed while she was sitting on the chair,
"So whats the deal with you and cian?" She asks spinning around the chair,

"What do you mean?" I ask, cause there's nothing going on, i would like there to be but at the same time I'm kinda iffy about it, and i dont know whats going on at all,

"Like ye did go on a cycle toghter, and i saw him texting you", my face goes red at the memory of his text last night, i swing my head a bit in thought of what to say

"I honestly don't know, we talk I enjoy his company and i think he enjoys mine, but if you want to block his number not hangout with him again i will but its not even anything" i ramble a bit, i really dont know where this could lead to, and a part of me regrets saying that if Alanna doesn't want me talking to him.

"No no i wont stop you talking to him, if you had a crush and he never even spoke to you or anything i would be annoyed, but like if ye dated" i froze at the thought and her saying that waiting for what she has to say next "not saying you're gonna, but if you do i wont care, well i will but its like hes any boy would be a bit weird thats all you know?" She says and i feel like a weight has been lift of my shoulders,

"You're so understanding" i say annoying her, she rolls her eyes.

We are watching a movie downstairs in Alannas living room, cian came back from work and went to his room passing us, not realizing we were in the living room,
"You can go say hi" Alanna nudges me to go,

"Um you sure?" I ask not knowing if shes okay with it

"Ya go shoo" she waves her hands at me to leave,

I get up and open the doors and go across the hall to where Cians room is, i knock, my heart beat getting faster and faster
"Come in" he shouts from his room, "who is i-" he cuts off when i enter, hes on his bed lying down with his work shirt unbottened half way and black trousers on.

"Hey" i say going around the door and closing it,

"Hey didn't know you were here"

"Ya sleeping over again" i say

"Not an accuse to see me is it" he jokes and its up right

I laugh "maybe, do you want it to" i tease

"Wouldn't mind, Alanna would though" he says, i look down and smile,

"So whats up" he says casually

"Nothing just wanted to talk to you" i say looking around his room, its a small square with a bathroom attached, with blue walls that have some posters, his rooms a mess with clothes and books on the floor.

"Ah yes cause you miss me so much is it" he smiles,

"Oohhh yes" i exaggerate,

"What are you guys watching" he says as we can hear the movie playing in the back because we turned up really loud,

"Hunger games" i say still standing awkwardly at his door that is closed behind me,

"That movie is shit" he says

"No its not its so good" I'm in shock that people actually hate the movie,

"Pfftt please there's better movies" he says nodding his head,

"Like what" i say walking more into his room and looking around,

"Um inception perhaps, shatter island" he says moving his head in thought

"Oh i love inception ive never watched shatter island" i reply

"Ah well its worth the watch"

I nod "i better go Alannas waiting" i smile and start heading for the door

"See ya" he says and lies back down, i walk back to the living room feeling as if he didn't really like me coming into his room and talking to him, I'm overthinking per usual and i try ignoring it and focus on the movie.

I wake up in the middle of the night, i grab my phone and see that its 4am, i feel sick that I'm gonna throw up, i get out of Alannas room trying to be quiet and not wake her up, i walk fast still trying to be quiet to the nearest bathroom and get sick, as I'm lunged over the toilet i finally stop and rinse out my mouth and then use mouthwash,

I walk downstairs for some water feeling lightheaded and thirsty, i get t0 the botttom of the stairs and see the lights are on i peek my head around the wall too see who's there and cian is there, shirtless, sitting at the kitchen island on his phone, he looks up abruptly and relaxes when he sees its me,

"Jesus you scared the shit out of me, what are you doing up?" He says putting his hand on his heart as if to keep it inside,

"Sorry i got sick I'm just getting water"i say going over to get a glass and then to the fridge for some water,

"Oh you okay" he says putting down his phone and turning to me,

"Ya ya I'm fine" i say half lying, i will be fine,
"What are you doing up" i say sipping my water and sitting next to him but leaving a chair between us,

"Cant sleep even though I'm so tired" he says rubbing his eyes

"Same can't really get much sleep" i drink my water,

"Ya i um keep thinking about this one girl and shes just not letting me sleep" he says sighing jokingly, i freeze for a bit

"Oh who" i say curiously trying not to act hurt by the fact hes thinking of someone else where I'm only able to think about him,

"She's sitting right across from me" he says with a chirp in his voice, i look up at him and we hold eye contact and i can my face going red,

"Well the boy across from me hasn't been able to get out of my head the whole day" I play along

"He seems like a prick" he drags out,

"Ya" i chuckle,

"Do you know what might help" he says nodding his head like he got an idea

"What?" I tilt my head playing along, he gets up and takes my hand and guides me to his rooms, i feel hot and dizzy like I'm going to faint but i stay following him until he leads me to his room,

"Maybe sleeping in the same bed" he says guiding me to his bed, I love the idea but i smell of sweat and sick, but i lie down on his bed hoping he wont smell it,
I feel him go on the bed and a second later our body's touch, i can feel his bare abs on my back and his hot breath on the top of my head as he wraps his hand around my waist and tucks me in closer and i let him, i feel at peace in his touch like i wanna stay here forever, and then i fall asleep.