(UNDERGOING EDITING)
"All I wanted was a ear to hear,
But, all i ever got was the pain I couldn't bear.
I believed you, I trusted you,
I put myself in your shoes and,
Tried to see the world,
But you failed to do the same.
All I did was to be unders...
A/N: I have changed Elena's (alora elder sister) name to Delilah. I'm absolutely sorry for the misunderstandings and confusion.
- - - - [ ZELAN POV ]
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She stood up turning everybody's attention on her. She started gasping loudly for air, her tiny body shaking. I didn't understand what she was up to until I saw her running out of class. She's having a panic attack again.
I could hear Mr. Todd shouting at us to stop running but I could care less.
I ran out of the class to follow her, but she was no where to be found.
Fuck, where did she run away so fast? I started to search the floor for her.
I was panicking when I had asked a girl to check the girl's bathroom to see if alora was there, unfortunately no. Where would she go? I just started following her when she ran out of the class after a minute, and she disappears so quickly? Then she might be some where in that floor itself.
I sighed in defeat when I searched the floor twice where art class was situated. I turned to go back to art class but my eyes instantly feel on the garden behind the French doors. She couldn't be there right? but there could be possibility.
I went and opened the French doors and was instantly hit with fresh air. I started to find alora in here. I can't believe I had never found this place, it's so refreshing and calm.
There was a huge tree at the end of the garden, it looks like an apple tree. I was about to go and search somewhere else but I saw a person sitting on the under the tree. I couldn't recognise who it was, but as I came closer to them, I could hear their sobs and gasps. Alora.
I know how terrifying panic attacks are and it feels like air is sucked out of your body and no matter how hard you try to breathe there's not enough oxygen reaching into the lungs, everything feels blurry and you feel like you are going to pass out , the whole experience is horrifying when nobody is there to help you get out of the fight/flight response but I want to help her.
"hey, hey Alora look at me" I held her soft feather like face in my hands and looked her in the eye, but she kept shaking and sobbing even more.
"Just try to listen to my words, alright? Please I need you here right now, take a deep breath with me ok? You are not alone in all this, let's do this together, a deep breath in 1..2..3...4... now exhale 5...6...7.."
I held her small body in my arms, laid with her, repeating the same exercise until she felt calm again.
She now was breathing normally which I was so grateful for. I held her even more closer and kissed her forehead. I fucking don't know what's going on with me. I'm pretty sure I'm freaking her out by first calling her "baby" and now kissing her forehead.
Her head was on my chest and I feel like she could hear my heart beating like crazy. I blushed. I never felt like this. I guess it's just that I've never been this close with a girl before.
Her tiny body fit in my body perfectly, we mold perfectly into each other. If heaven isn't like this, I don't want to go there.
The greenery filled place, the fresh air, the bees buzzing, the butterflies dancing around, the birding chirping sweetly, the smell of beautiful flowers and more importantly, laying down with your favourite girl. I sighed, enjoying this moment.
Alora looked up at me with her glossy honey eyes which I really adore. Disappointment flooded through me when she sniffled and got up from my embrace. I did freak her out.
"uh no, you didn't f-freak me out, d-don't worry." She said as if hearing me out. The fuck, did I say it out loud again?
"That's such a relief. How are you feeling right now?" I asked getting up from my relaxed position to folding my legs and sitting up straight.
She just looked at me with her beautiful honey-like eyes and stared at me. What a beautiful sight to stare into. It feels like we both have a staring contest right now. I swear, we both were staring deep into our souls for 3 minutes.
Alora was the one to break by silence by chuckling and shaking her head playfully. I didn't understand what she was up to, but I started to chuckle with her.
"You're actually weird." She said playfully.
I pretend to be hurt by clutching my chest and squinting my eyes at her. "I'm so hurt alora, why would you think that?" I asked playfully.
"I don't know, w-why would you come a-all the way till here to just...help someone like me?" sadness flooded in her eyes when she asked me that.
She bent her head down and it didn't help me to read her expression. Confusion filled me. why would she ask me that? What did she mean by "someone like me"?
"What do you mean? I would do anything to help someone like you." I looked at her quizzically.
Her head snapped at me.A tear tickled her cheek. I started to panic again, why is she crying again? Did I say something? Fuck what is happening?!
"Holy fuck, alora, what happened? What did I do? god, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry." I held her body against mine and hugged her while she cried on my chest.
She hesitated to hug me back at first but gave up. I smiled at her hugging me back. Her small hands were on my shoulder blades which made my body ignite. What is she doing to me?
She pulled back and wiped her face with her hands. I cupped her god tier face in my hands, and asked again "what happened?" worry filled me, when she didn't look at me.
"it's uh um, it's just that n-no o-one has ever told m-me that when I n-needed h-help rather t-than my elder s-sister." She blushed so hard when she said that. I was so ready to punch any one who didn't even try to help her.
I sighed, "Well, you don't have to suffer in silence anymore. I'll be always with you if you need help. Always and forever." I whispered in her ear.
I mean that, I would do anything to help her, she doesn't deserve to suffer in silence. I still remember how hard it is when you suffer in silence. That isn't healthy. Keeping all your emotions inside will make it even more worse and I certainly don't want alora to feel that way anymore.
She looked up at me as if I grew two heads.
To my surprise, she pulled my neck and hugged me tighter muttering a "Thank you so much, I really appreciate your help." She hid her face in the crook of my neck and nuzzled her face.
I'm pretty sure she's sniffing me. Thank god I applied more cologne than I usually do.
I laughed at her cuteness and picked her up. She shrieked at my movement and instantly wrapped her legs around my waist.
I've never felt so happy and peaceful after my parents passed away. I was so lost. I'm actually adopted.
My actual parents passed away when I was 8 years old. Jake, my current father adopted me after their death and when Bruce was 10 when his wife left him. But to be honest, I still haven't really healed, I just pretend to be okay so that I won't burden them.
I know that my step dad is very supportive and Bruce is too, but sometimes I just don't open up to people who actually love me thinking that I'm wasting their time or that I'm burdening them with my problems. I'm still working on myself.
