Lauren Jauregui Imagines

Letting You Go

"Babe I'm home!" I called out.

"Yeah here in the kitchen!"

I smiled as I heard her voice. I immediately went to the kitchen and my heart melted at the sight. She was cooking and her hair was up in a messy bun. I could tell that she was trying so hard to cook and that even made it more perfect.

I went behind her and hugged her by the waist. She smiled and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I pouted.

"Well that is a perfect way to greet your exhausted girlfriend." I said playfully. She just rolled her eyes and gave me a proper kiss. I smiled and pecked her on the lips.

"So what's cooking?" I asked as I checked the food. I can't believe I'm saying this but it smelled good. Well you see, last time she cooked she caught the food on fire.

"Um Pasta Ala Jauregui." She said with her Indian accent. I laughed and rolled my eyes. She was such a dork. And I'm in love with the dork.

Then she finally finished and prepared the food on the table. I was watching her prepare the food while smiling. Why can't this just be everyday? I've been wanting to propose to her but every time I bring up the topic, she just turns it down and says that she's not ready for that kind of commitment. I mean we've been together for 7 years. I then got cut off from my thoughts when I saw her hand waving at me.

"Hello? Earth to Y/N? I said let's eat." She said sitting down. I sighed but then sat down. Why is she still not ready for marriage? I've been trying everything and professing my undying love for her but she just seems to not mind at all.

"Hey. What are you thinking about?" She asked concerned. I know I need to say this. At least once.

"Marrying you." And just like that she sighed and brought down her spoon and fork. She frowned while looking at me.

"Y/N you know I'm not ready yet." She said with a hint of annoyance in her tone. Woah.

"Well then when? When Lauren? Cause these past 7 years I've been trying everything and you just seem not to mind at all." I said feeling anger. She glared at me and stood up.

"Shut up. All you ever do is talk to me about that stupid marriage. I mean isn't this enough? We are happy just the way it is." She accused me. I then felt tears form in my eyes. I then couldn't help but let out my anger.

"Are we? ARE WE HAPPY?! Cause lately I'd be lying if I said I was happy. I've been trying to put up with your cold attitude with me at times. You don't even said I love you to me anymore. Did something change tell me. Or is it him? " I said now crying. Then she looked at me as if she just got caught. And I couldn't help anymore but break down. She went to my side and keep saying sorry. I then knew at that time that she wasn't ready. She was waiting for someone. Someone else.

"I never meant for it to happen. It just did. I'm sorry Y/N. I'm sorry if all I ever did was hurt you." she said crying too.  I then prepared myself for what I was going to do. It hurts. It kills me a lot but I know this was the best for her. For us.

"I'm sorry too. For holding you back from your feelings. It made all sense to me now. I don't know what came into me to do this but I know this is for the best." She was now breaking down and I couldn't help but wipe her tears away. Even though it hurts, I was still in love with her.

"I'm letting you go. I'm letting you go Lauren. Because we both know this isn't gonna work out. We want different things. We can't force love Lo. And I'm not letting you let go of your true love. Trust me you'll regret it. And don't mind me, I'll be okay. Knowing you're gonna be with him, I'll be okay. He's a good man. But know this, even though I'm letting you go. It won't change the fact that you made fall in love with you. Completely and hopelessly in love with you. And I want you to be happy. Even though I'm not the one making you happy. I love you. You'll forever have a piece of my heart." I said tears falling down. She then hugged me and cried. We just stood there for what felt like forever. Holding each other and crying like the cry babies we are.

***

4 years later...

"Okay. Now I'm jealous. You're saying you love banana more than me? " I said while faking hurt. She just laughed and shook her head.

"No babe I love you both. But I love YOU more." She said holding my face in her hands and kissing me. I smiled because I felt her passion in the kiss. Even though we were together for already 3 years, she still loved me as the first day we were together. And if not, maybe more.

"I love you too." I said kissing her again. Then someone cleared their throat. I looked to that someone who interrupted me from kissing my beautiful girlfriend and I froze.

"Lauren." I said completely shocked. After breaking up, we didn't really talk after that.

"Y/N." She said looking at me then at Camila. She was shocked when she saw her. Then she looked at her hand and saw a ring on it. She looked back up at me and smiled.

"Can we talk?" She asked almost pleadingly. I looked at Camila and she smiled. She nodded and said go. I then went but not before kissing Camila again. I could tell she was a bit nervous about me and Lauren because I was really in love with her before. But really, I'm deeply in love with Camila. 

"I love YOU." I assured her and the she smiled. She even blushed. I giggled at her cuteness. Then I went with Lauren.

"So..." I said clearly not knowing how to start a conversation with her.

"That was cute. You and Camz." She smiled but something was off. I just couldn't point a finger at it.

"Thanks. So how are you and Brad?" I said blushing then smiled. At first I thought it was gonna hurt mentioning Brad but then it didn't. I just felt happy for her. Brad was a really nice guy.

"Everything's fine. Good actually." She sat down on the bench and patted the seat next to her. I then sat down next to her. I looked at her and even 4 years later, she was still effortlessly beautiful. But not more than Camila. Yeah I'm kinda whipped.

"How? You and Camila. If you don't mind me asking." She asked curiously. I smiled as memories of me and Camila came flashing back in my mind. I then told her how she was there for me. And how she slowly made me fall for her. And how I proposed to her. Funny thing is Camila and Lauren are best friends. And Camila always had a crush on me even way before we met. The most weird coincidence is that both our families grew up together. It turns out fate had a better plan for me.

I then finished and looked over at Lauren. She was just staring at me and smiling.

"I'm happy for you. That you finally found the one." She said with a tear falling down. I then wiped her tear away and smiled.

"I'm okay now Lo. Don't worry." I assured her letting a tear fall too. She hugged me and we just comforted each other. We just talked there about life and what other things happened. But unfortunately, she said she needed to go. Then we said our goodbyes but exchanged numbers. I then watched as she walk away. I smiled knowing everything was okay now.

I then returned to Camila and smiled as I saw her riding the swing. I then sat down beside her. She looked up and smiled.

"I'm guessing it went okay?" She asked and I smiled and nodded.

"Everything's fine." I then looked at her and knew I definitely got it bad for her.

"I love you. So much." I said looking into her eyes. Then she smiled that goofy smile of hers.

"Really?" She asked and I just playfully rolled my eyes.

"No not really." I said and she pouted while crossing her arms. I then laughed and shook my head. I looked at her kissed her. I poured everything I felt for her into the kiss. And that's what made it more perfect.

I pulled away and looked at her swollen lips. I blushed knowing it was because of me.

"Now do you believe me?" I asked catching my breath from the kiss. She nodded while smiling and kissed me again.

It was perfect. Everything was.