All i want

01

Waking up in the morning is the easiest for me unlike kids my age nowadays. As I'm going through puberty, I noticed a lot have changes with my body and the way I think. But instead of growing up, I would rather just playing video games or reading comic books all day long.

*knock knock knock*

"Hey, your friend is already here... come down and eat your breakfast honey." mom said. "okay, be there in a sec." I said while wearing my uniform and closed the door in hurry.

"Mann, your sandwiches is the best auntie!" Gojo said while stuffing his mouth. "Hahahaha thank you for that young man and don't say that out loud, your mom would be sad if she hear you said that." mom chuckled as she saw you and signaling to sit on the dining chair.

"Shhhh, what she didn't know, doesn't hurt her." As he winked at mom who were giggling. "Y/n hurry up and eat, I don't want to be late again" Gojo continued. "Good morning to you too and why the hell are you here? Shouldn't you be eating breakfast at your own place? And the last time I checked, because of your sleepy head that got us late in the first place."

"Hmm, my sisters being annoying early in the morning so that why I crashed your place." He said nonchalantly.

Knowing his family, once the bathroom occupied means late for the school. "Did you thought of getting into the clubs?" Gojo asked. "I don't know yet, have you?" I answer as I sit on the bench waiting for our bus.

I'm good at sports so maybe I will join the basketball team if it's available. For someone who is very smart, Gojo can apply for any clubs he wants and for sure they will happy to have him...

"Hello? Hellooo? Are you there?" Gojo wave his hand in front of my face. "Sorry, got lost in my thoughts." I replied. "As I was saying, recently Roku broke up with his girlfriend... I didn't think that guy would last this long with that girl since he's always change his relationship every 3 months." He said while skipping after we got off the bus.

"How bout you? Did you have your eyes on someone?" Gojo asked.

And there I was, caught off guard at his question, "N-no I don't, maybe.. I don't know." I lied knowing that he would immediately notice it. "Well, when you sure bout your feelings, you can tell me and I will support you cause that is what best friend are for." He said smiling foolishly not knowing your heart just got hit by a punch.

"Best friend huh... If only you know." I mumbled lowly and open my locker to collect my books. "What? I didn't hear it." He asked while the school bell rings indicating the classes gonna start. "Nothing." We continued walking to our class.

Gojo Satoru is my best friend since we were little because we met after his family moved next to our house. We knew each other pretty well and were basically called twins. Wherever I go, he goes. I tell him pretty much everything and we even hate the same math teacher who were rude af.

The only thing that I kept as a secret is my feeling towards him. At first I thought it was silly to fall for a guy especially my best friend so I kept on denying it until last year summer breaks, one of our mutual friend invite us to watch some porn that he got from a senior.

I tried asking them to play games instead but he said that we can play games other time because his parents weren't at home at the time so he took the opportunity to show us the video.

When the video played for 10 minutes, I didn't find it amusing and just watching it without giving too much attention. So I look around and I spot Gojo blushing, biting his lips while his hands in his pants.

I didn't give it much thought so I looked away but his face lingers in my head. The word 'so cute, he looks so cute' stuck in my head and suddenly I felt the growing in my pants so I excused myself to the bedroom and masturbate while thinking of his face.

To make matters worse, I even dreamt that we were doing more than a kiss. That moment made me realized that I like him more than just a friend. I felt guilty for feeling this way cause I know that if I ever confess, it would ruin our friendship and I very much didn't want that.

For a whole year I just kept it inside not telling a soul and it felt like torture whenever he told me about a girl that he likes or if I see a girl confess to him at the schoolyard.

Don't get me wrong, I am really happy when he dates someone but deep down I know that I didn't stood a chance to be with him so I stayed the same person that he could lean on.

Sometimes I gives hint such as holding his hand, gives him my water bottles, also cooked a meal and gave it to him, bought him presents but maybe because it's been almost 16 year that we've known each other so he didn't feel weird about it.

I even date a girl just to see his reaction and make him jealous but sadly it didn't work. So I just bottled up my feelings so he won't notice it all.