All i want

04

I'm gonna confess when he sleep over at my place tomorrow. I thought to myself while laying on the bed. But my brain somehow didn't ready for sleep yet and maybe because I'm nervous as hell just thinking about confessing to him. what do I say? "hey, I like you for a long time now, wanna be my boyfriend." what the hell?! that is so not sincere. "hey, I like you but I wanna stay as friend so lets fuck?" what the fuck?!! That is much more worse. *sigh* whatever, don't prepare and just say it.

Morning arrived and the day went great. here I am sitting at my desk eating my lunch while Gojo and Roku were called by our homeroom teacher to help her with library stuff. 

As soon as they came in the class, I was called by a senior because she want to talk outside the class. I thought she would say something about curriculum stuff but she is now confessing that she had feelings for me since last year. I felt bad for rejecting her but it would be cruel to let her on since I don't have feelings for her.

"He's famous for rejecting girls that confessed to him. why did he stay single if there's a ton of girls are pining for him? or did he have someone he likes?" Gojo ask Roku curiously. "uh.. I don't know about that so you should ask him." Roku replied nonchalantly.

"Rocky rocky, I can sense that you're lying~ Well why didn't you tell me about your crush huh?" Gojo giving him the side eye. "Huh?! what are you talking about?" Roku retaliate.

"I asked y/n yesterday what did you guys talk about when we were on our way home and he said you were talking about your crush."

That son of a gun, its his crush we talked about yesterday, now I had to lie. "ouh.. yeah.. but I like her just a bit and she's already have a boyfriend so I'm not gonna even bother. ouh he's here so you can ask him about earlier." Roku distracted Gojo by pointing at y/n.

"What did you talk about?" As I sit and continue finishing my food. "nothing... just about this guy's crush." Gojo stated. huh, you not gonna ask him *sigh internally* what I'm gonna do with these two people. Roku thought to himself while glancing at y/n and Gojo back and forth.

"hey guess who is going to move to Kyoto next year?" Roku asked excitedly. "No way?!" We both answered shocked to the fact that our best friend is not gonna be around in senior year. "Yep, you looking at him.. well my dad had to relocate because of work so the whole family gotta go with him." Roku sigh. "ouh come on, its next year, not tomorrow so don't be sad yet hahahaha." he continued.

"okay lets promise that we will always contact each other and goes to the same university at least." I tried lighten up the mood.

"Promise!" they both answered excitedly.

since there's no extra curriculum class today, we got to go home early. on our way back, "do you want to sleep over to day? I have something to tell you as well." I asked scratching my head even though its not itchy.

"Of course and why not now since I'm the only one next to you?" He ask back.

"Gojo, uhm lets do later okay?" I just smiled at him. this is gonna be perfect, just the two of us in my room without interruption. I just have to say what I want from the bottom of my heart.

"Fine, you go on first.. I have to stop at the mart, my mom asked to buy some stuff for our house." He stated.

While waiting for him to knock on my door, I should start making dinners so everything would be in order  but somehow after a while, Gojo still not coming here. So I watch some shows on television to kill time and suddenly...

*BANG BANG BANG!!* *BANG BANG!!*

What the fuck?! who the hell knocks like that so I opened the door and there was Gojo standing looking very pale and sweating on the verge of crying. "what happened?" I became worried.
"M-my f-family.." he said and just passed out right in front of the door. I lifted him up and put him on the couch. I went straight for his house to check what was happening and very much regret it the second I open the door.