All i want

03

I don't know what is it with today... First I had a bad feeling since this morning. I don't usually mind it but somehow I can't shake this feeling of uneasiness. Second, everything I did today kept going wrong and my clumsiness isn't any of help at all cause it just make everything worse.

*Boink*  "What the hell are you doing (y/n)?!!" the coach shouted across the field.

"you good man?" ask my teammates. "yeah, just surprised" great... I'm so distracted that I didn't notice the basketball were heading straight to my face. "y/n, go sit at the bench for now.. you've been all over the place today." coach instructed.

"Hahahahahaha! D-did you saw your f-face?!" Both Roku and Gojo laughing their ass off. "yeah yeah, whatever.. Please keep it down a bit, everybody's watching." but keep on laughing, I really like to hear you laughing because of me.

"awww, someone's sulking~." Gojo pinched my cheek and said "How bout we go for our ice cream shop on the way back to make you feel better?" "Sure but it's on you" I answered.

"You know, you should've just confessed to him already... what are you waiting for?" Roku asked. I stared at him blankly. how the fuck did he know. "the way you stare at him, you smile only when you're with him and you would everything for him without thinking twice... that's how I know." 

Now he can read my mind too?! "Yep, just tell him already. he's too dense about this and probably gonna realize it until we are too old that we can't move anymore."

"okay okay, don't talk about it loudly! he's walking In front of us." this guy is gonna be the death of me. "its fine, he's too distracted." Roku said.

"its not like I don't want to tell him and take him to a date but y'know... first, he straight. Second, I'm his best friend and I don't want to ruin our relationship because of my feeling. Third, I can't handle it if he just want to stay as a friend.. *sigh* I just can't."

"*sigh* a stupid and a dense pair... what a great combination. Y'know, Gojo is smarter than you think and maybe he will hear you out if you confess to him but what do I know, I'm not him hahaha. Okay, this is my road so see you tomorrow and when you found the courage to tell him, I wish you good luck... BYE GUYS!" Roku shouted while running.

The whole walk to home was so quiet and we were just eating our ice cream until *ehem* "What did you guys talk about? you guys were whispering so I try not to eavesdrops. "oh, uhmmm.. we talk about Roku's crush from another school." Sorry dude, I had to lie.

"ouh" he replied. just ouh? don't pout, my heart cant take it. or are you jealous? what is it?! why are you suddenly quiet? 

I took his free hands and hold it. "what are you doing?" Gojo ask. "what? we always do this when were going home." I answered. "okay, whatever." nice, he smiling now.

I've always enjoy walking home together with him because that way I can spend some time with just him. I wish it can last forever but I know that imagination is not the same as reality. 

We parted when we arrived and I was greeted by my mom "welcome back" *kiss her cheeks* "you early today and why are you so giddy? hahahaha." I asked. "well, I ended my shift early and I got to spent my time with my son so of course I'm feeling happy. anyway, I'm cooking chicken curry for dinner, is that okay?" she said.

"of course, its my favorite.. you don't have to ask." sometimes my mom can be cute and maybe that because she still young. "okay young man, go wash up and I'll call you when its ready."

*time skips by authornim*

"y/n~ lets eat." I sat down and just went in for the food. "more please~." "Honey, I know my food is great but you need to slow down a bit. its the fourth bowl already and you will get an indigestion if you eat it too fast."

"hehe, I missed your food and I'm still growing also I can eat all of it." I said. "oh before I forgot, tomorrow I will stay at the hospital since my coworker is still on a leave and I will leave the money the same place." mom reminded. "okay, can Gojo sleep over tomorrow?"

"Sure, you didn't have to ask because he's gonna sleep here like he already lived here." she smiled.

"mom, today I get a bad feeling all day.. did something happen to you at work?" I asked. "Nope, hmm did something bad happen to you at school?" 

"Nothing as well... maybe its just a feeling, I'm sure it will go away."

"you know, when your dad left this world I was always scared something bad gonna happen to you but I knew he's somewhere always watching over us and protect us from bad things.. So I raised you easily with less worries since you've always been a good boy. also if I had a bad day, I just rant at him about it or just scold him just because he left us too early. You can talk to me about everything and I will always have your back, okay?"

"okay mom, thank you" I hugged her and we went to our own room.