my king i hate || 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐧

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟕

you could have anyone you want.
why would you want to be with me?
i'm nothing special.
- jealous, eyedress

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(you can play the song!!)

hours pass and i find myself up in my rooms balcony. my legs dangling over the edge with a slight breeze keeping me cool. i wonder how dream is doing. i need to stop thinking about him, but i can't. he is on my mind constantly. i really don't know why i care so much about him.

he basically owns me, and i hated him for that. i still hate him for keeping me locked in here and really not even talking to me. if i'm going to be his wife then...

"i'm going to be his wife..." i whispered to myself. i hear the door open behind me and i look back. "dream?"

"y/n, i have to talk to you about something." dream stated, staying where he was right by the door.

"you should be in bed, you aren't fully healed yet." i mentioned, looking back out onto the horizon. 

"i want to talk about that actually. my eyes were open when i saw you place the totem in my hand y/n." he says, i can sense him walking up to me. i turn around to face him and step off of the balcony. 

"okay, and? you should be happy i saved you." i reply, standing close to dream.

"no, i want to know why you saved me." dream ordered, "why do you care about me? i thought you hated me." 

"i do hate you, you ruined my life." i added, turning around so i didn't have to face him. 

"then why did you save me? you had the chance to kill me right there, but you didn't. i saw the way you looked at me when i got shot, you didn't want to let me go." dream explained, "i have tried so hard to make you hate me, i didn't ever want you here." 

"well it didn't seem like that the night when i got hurt, you wanted to kiss me. i felt it dream, now let me through." i spoke, trying to walk past him. 

"no, now why the fuck do you care about me? what did i do wrong to make you love me!"  he starts raising his voice. 

"i don't know!" i shout. "i don't know why i care! i shouldn't i shouldn't give a damn about you or how you were hurt, but i do! i don't know why, but i do!" 

"you're supposed to hate me." he seethes. 

"i do! i do hate you. i hate you with everything in me. i honestly don't think i've ever hated someone so much. but i hate you so much that i care. i hate you so much it hurts. and i fucking hate myself for it." i snapped, tears streaming down my face. he just stands there, cold as ever. no facial expression or anything, he just stands there.

"im canceling the wedding, you need to pack your things and leave." dream mutters, about to turn and leave.

"i hate you." i whispered. "you hurt me." his eyes were planted on the ground but i could tell that he felt no empathy, no emotion. 

"sorry?" he says harshly. i just looks at him, tears rolling down my cheek.

"why don't you care!" i said, my voice getting loud again. a slight smile grew on his face. this was entertainment for him. 

"am i supposed to?" he said, his eyes still planted on the floor. i stare at him in shock, realizing that he's always been this way. "i don't love you, i don't care for you. i never did." he says, now starring at me with no emotion.

"what?" i say hesitantly. 

"you heard me, i don't love you." dream utters. i stare at him, my eyes getting blurry from all my tears. "the thing is no one will ever love you. you're pathetic." he says, losing the distance between us.

"you're right." i mumble in a low voice. "no one will ever love me." he stares at me in shock, like those words did not just come out of my mouth. 

i blast right past him, bumping my shoulder into him. i run out of my room and down the stairs. i turn the corner and run out of the castle. i didn't even notice it was raining when i was talking to dream, but i don't care. my feet pick up a fast pace and i don't stop running until i physically can't anymore. i collapse under a tree, and my eyes drift off to sleep. 

dream's pov

a single tear falls down my cheek as the only girl i have ever loved escapes my grasp. the worst part of everything is i did this to myself. the problem with her love is that i didn't even realize that i needed it, until i was the one who pushed it away. 

i walk into her room and look around. the bed that she slept in, where she was sitting when i helped her wound. i look at the mirror where i stood behind her in that green dress she wore, that was the moment i realized that she wasn't just any ordinary girl. i need to go and find her, i need to tell her i care about her.

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