The Void

part 2

my eyes forcefully reopening, it was still dark just like my dreams and hopes for my future, is this it? am i really dead? its cold, my body feels like it had been sitting in the sun all day, bathing on the beach as my eyes were slowly being blinded by the bright line aiming towards me, like i was back at my home town, with my family and friends.

I miss home, the sweet smell of the fresh grass in the summer morning, my family surrounding me, supporting me from everywhere, my town wasnt that big, it was a small one with atleast one farm, a grocery store and clothing shop with many more houses and more interesting things, located next to the deep forest woods, no one would dare go inside of, me and my siblings, a sister and a brother would go near it and dare our friends to sneak past the guard, we would visit it weekly, no one was ever able to get through tho, they were big and muscular. We didnt have technology and would send letters to interact with someone, as the town was small everyone knew eachover, we were like one giant happy family, no one knew what alot of pain was, we were all careful and would help eachover out, after school me and my sister would go help father in the farm to provide for our neighbours and family, meanwhilst my sister would go do the paper rounds, handing out newsletter, she didnt like animals, they scared her i can remember walking into the house, closing the wooden door shut and turning around to see mother cutting the vegetables, i miss it, i miss them, if only i could see my brother again, is this what he had to see? the void.

My insides, they felt freezing, like ice is slowly consuming my heart and lungs, taking over my body as i float endlessly through the unknown, unaware of my surroundings my muscles barely being able to mouth, my mouth stuck in place, taking a deep breathe i try to calm myself down, this cant be what happens when you die, right? there must be some sort of afterlife, a heaven or hell or even an inbetween! my body was still like a figuring on a desk unavle to move but my heart was crying tears and my head was screaming, screaming for help, to get me out of this hell hole but my mouth just wouldnt budge, the sirens i heard before i was gone, they were surrounding me, speakers placed all around me set on blast, i couldnt get it out of my head, is this it? is this my life now? floating endlessy through a deep dark void, no one to come save me, no one can hear my body yelling for another chance, one more oppurtinity in life, unable to move or feel, unable to speak too.

5 minutes has passed or so it feels like 5 minutes still drifting through the dark bitter limbo, a place where no one could escape from, i was trapped like a monster stuck in a cage, no window or way to get light in, my soul grasping onto the hard steal bars, banging against the strong brick wall till my fist become bloody and broken, looking worn down and destroyed, calling out for help, any form of help, just a simple hello to know that someone is there, that someone is with me by my side, watching and waiting also looking for a sign, a way to get out of here, to escape from this monstrosity.

eventually im able to move my mouth, my body feels free even if it was just one part of my body, i take it as an opportunity to scream, loudly and sharply, screaming till my lungs are forced to stop and pick back up the oxygen around me, the noise echoing, it takes awhile but eventually it stops, my body was weak, waiting for the sound, to give me a sign that there is walls, there is an end to this, like a pebble being dropped down a deep gloomy hole, waiting for it to reach the bottom and make a loud "splash" sound as it lands peacefully on the water...but nothing, the echoing continued becoming quiter and quiter as time passes, my emotions mean nothing, no matter how hard i try, nothing will be able to help me, not this time, i should give in, this is my life now, doomed forever.