Life is Filled with Angst

Anger

Author's Note: Sometimes I wonder what a more salty WWX would be like. This is just me relieving my frustrations so if the characters appear to be OOC you know why. 

"It's unfortunate you weren't here for a majority of A-Yuan's life," Lan Xichen says softly, not noticing or ignoring Wei Wuxian suddenly tensing. "As a child, he was always curious and well-mannered. He was such a joy to be around. Sometimes, I wonder what it would've been like if you'd accepted Wangji's invitation. We could've helped you—"

"Enough!" Wei Wuxian finally snaps. For the first time ever since coming back did Wei Wuxian feel that rage he had before he died.

Typically, he would've ignored the not-so-subtle reprimand from the Sect Leader but today, his self control broke. For all that the Lans preached about their rules, they were surprisingly fickle when it actually mattered.

"Wei Ying..."

"No, just be quiet," he barrels over whatever Lan Wangji had to say. "'Could've helped me', you say? Me? A demonic cultivator?"

It was odd really that people always accused him of his misgivings but never once looked deeper into their own.

"Look at me in the eyes and tell me that you truly would've helped a demonic cultivator and the remaining Wen Remnants," he demanded.

Lan Xichen looked confused at the sudden change in behaviour. Where was this coming from?

"Of course we would've—"

"Then, when I barged in the Lanling Jin's private banquet detailing a story about innocents being killed, where were you?"

All went silent at that.

"Where was the investigation? Why was I ignored? Was it because I said it?" Wei Wuxian pressed heatedly. "Because a demonic cultivator said it? Because it was a convenient excuse to label me as an enemy?"

"T-That's..."

"Can't answer that? Then answer this," this time he swerved to look at Hanguang-Jun, "why did you never speak up when you knew there were only the elderly at Burial Mounds? When you knew there was a 2 year old child?"

Lan Wangji stilled. Nobody responded.

"You keep telling me it's my fault. You keep telling me I didn't say anything even though I had said it in front of every cultivator at the Banquet. You keep telling me that I do not deserve Lan Zhan because I hurt him."

Red eyes gleamed, "The whole world believed Hanguang-Jun hated me. How could I be any different?" 

Lan Xichen couldn't say anything else.

"So tell me, Sect Leader Lan, how could any of you have 'helped me' in the past?"

Author's Note: I love WWX, I really, really do. But sometimes, I wish he would just speak up. Then again, it is his character to move on and forgive things. 

Anyways, these were some questions I had. When LXC said that WWX's heart had changed, I really had to take a moment and re-read that moment. Like, uhm, excuse me? Are all of you ignoring what WWX had to say about the Jins? Okay, fine, I can understand that they were surprised with his bluntness and how he practically humiliated the Jin sect [which was awesome, btw] in front of EVERYONE, but did everyone conveniently forget that WWX literally asked Jin Zixun for a private audience at first?????? 

I have a lot to say about that scene.