She is so perfect.
She's everything I want.
I tried to do everything possible to make notice me, but she never did.
Sometimes felt if I was someone special in her life, but other times I felt that it was not important in her life, and that's really hurt me so much.
From the first time I saw her in the hallways of the school caught my attention. She was the most beautiful girl that my eyes had seen. Her beauty had left me crazy. She was a goddess.
With the time I got closer to her, it was a sweet girl, or rather, that thought. She was gaining popularity, becoming the most desired girl in school, the envy of all. She had changed, it had become a girl believed. But with all that, I not stopped liking her.
My bestfriend Alan, had confessed me that he was in love with her. I honestly do not know to do, I do not want to lose his friendship, but i don't to see them holding hands. I did not know which one was worse.
Then I found out my bestfriend and she had going on. And obiously I had to deal with it. But I couldn't when I saw kissing in front of me. Everything that it was called heart, had being broken into pieces.
A year after she and I had become very good friends, I knew all of her. I knew what she like and she didn't like. I knew all her fears and dreams. I know many of her secrets.
I could swear that she was attracted to me. She look at me in a different way and cute. She had told me that I was her favorite person. She had told me that I was the contrary of all of the other guys she had being with, because I was intelligent, I made her laugh, I made her anule, I was with her in the worst moments and I listed to her. I usted to do the impossible to make her feel better. She also told me that I wasn't like the others, that want her body. In that she was correct, I didn't want her body.
I wanted to walk holding her hand, and make her smile with any little stupid thing that come out of my lips. I wanted to make her fell in love, hug her without a reason and sleep with her to stroke with her hair while she fell asleep. I wanted to look at her eyes everyday, make her feel safe and over all make her feel happy. I wanted to fulfill my goals with her. I wished never leave her alone.
I was in the middle of who I am and what she wanted.
I fell in love with her because of the way she tried me, but later I realized that she tried all of the same way.
She did the worst thing she could do to me, she gave me hope.
We were not, we are not and as it seem we will not to be anything. But I still thank her because of the beautiful smiler that she gave me and for the unforgettable memories that we had.
It is pathetic because I still love her, even thought de mate she did to me. She just deluted me and that was all.
It cost me a lot to realize that I'm too good for her.
Sometimes you do not win, but you learn.
