Daisies and Toffies I Taekook

Episode 14

The next morning Jungkook wake up in a warm embrace. His body was aching with pain. With great difficulty, he opened his eyes just to meet with his loving husband sleeping on him. A sudden smile appeared on his lips though it disappeared as soon as he remembered last night's incident. His heart clenched remembering his husband's thought. How could he hate him? How could he disgust his Tae when he knew he is nothing but pure. How could he not wanted him...when he was the only hope in his life.

He knew he wasn't himself but what can he do his mind was a mess... non-stop embarrassing words he had to hear... The accusation... The humiliation...hurtful words were throwing at him... He couldn't run away from all this. Every day someone was questioning him, their relationship, he could hear the gossips of his worker behind his back... Then there was his mother every day saying how incapable of a husband Tae was....declaring his love as a failure. How could he pretend everything was right when it's not. How could he tell Tae that the media was still digging into their relationship... Questioning it...that it was just his power that was holding them. He knew their marriage was on a dangerous edge...

They need to talk and clear things out. But wouldn't it break Tae if he gets to know all this. He knew how sensitive his husband could get. So he took all the pain with himself. He just wished that Tae wait for a little... A little for him to manage all this... A little time for his heart to heal...

The wait is a big word made with a simple 4 alphabets. Can you wait for someone without knowing the reason...?

He felt hot all of sudden when his eyes opened it was already noon...the other side of the bed was empty.

He sighed woke up slowly...he hopes his husband was fine.

After finishing all the other works he decided to check on his husband as he tried to call jungkook but it was unreachable. So he called Yoongi and get to know that his husband was working without having breakfast or lunch. Without wasting any moment he took some food that he made and grabbed his keys went out towards JJT company. His heart was still weak...feeling unpleasurable things every second remembering last night. It's an awful sight...he swore never to let this happen again to his Jungkook. 

With a positive thought, he was on his way when suddenly something catches his eyes...something so pure and beautiful but still made him feel awful. His heart was thumping like crazy he observed the sight...the beautiful sight of his smiling husband...he wanted to smile too but couldn't...he felt useless a guilt feeling creeping in his heart wanted him to cry...

He still observed his husband playing with a bunch of kids with his full joy...playing, smiling, admiring those pure creatures with hands...There was no tiredness, no sadness in those eyes... The park was not too many people. He admired his husband's eyes, lips, face for a long time unknowingly tears staining his cheeks which he didn't bother to wipe. He turns his car towards their house without thinking anymore...with an unbearable storm in his heart. His long-gone insecurities were again triggered. . . .

 'Jungkook, where were you? And where is your phone? Taehyung called an hour ago...I told him you're working shitless without having any food... 'Jungkook looked at yoongi with a sigh... Before nodded his head and went to his cabin. He saw his husband called right after his mother's visit which was why he did not pick up the call... He didn't want to make things worse by saying anything cause he was pissed. So he went to the park near their office to clear his mind. The playing, jumping, smiling pure souls always lit up his mood just like his Tae. He really loved children. He knew they couldn't have one but they could surely adopt a little one. He wanted to do it for a long time. But didn't get any time nor he thought he was prepared.

At that moment a sudden thought crossed his mind.

'Should they adopt a child? Is it a good decision for them? Maybe that baby can make their pain gone? Maybe they can forget all the miseries and start a new journey of their life with a little one by their side? Maybe it can get better with this way'

A little smile creeping on his lips imagining a perfect picture of their small family. He, his husband, and their little one. It was really soothing and painless. He got a new hope... New hope to start a new life...a new hope of smiling again. . . . .

 The door was slammed as hard as possible... neighbor could hear the sound. Shoes left unsettled on the floor... A scream was heard from the bathroom... The water was running. A desperate scream a soul crying in his agony... Miserably feeling helpless... Crying, sobbing, screaming... Everything felt useless. No matter how much he tried that image of jungkook having a complete family with a child and wife of his own never left his sight. Those words that threw at him in the past...questioning their love passing draggers in his heart. He shouldn't destroy someone's life like that, not the person he loves...the never-ending saga of his insecurities and his trust ended today... He was right... His mother-in-law was right...jungkook will not be happy with him. He was the reason for all jungkook miseries just because of him jungkook had to endure the pain. His husband didn't deserve it...he never deserved it. He felt hopeless... The hope he was holding on the left that day. He couldn't go on like this. He couldn't...

Sorry guys ...it's been a while I last posted...things are really messy in my life. so yeah..exams are coming too...

i will try to post regularly after exam i guess. 

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thank you for your love and attention :)