Little Lies (Akaashi x reader)

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YALL IT'S ALMOST BEEN 2 MONTHS 😭😭

first of all,

how are yall? <33

second,

I am SO SO SO SO SO SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN UPDATING

The onseshot book is however being updated from time to time uh

BUT

I just- ZHSBZHSBS MY REASON IS SO EH LIKE I
FEEL LIKE IT'S NOT VALID ㅜㅜ

I've been feeling real off for uhm ngl even since after  my birthday.

No matter how tired and heavy my eyes were, there's always something that's making me not sleep

ok

Just came into a conclusion uh it's embarrassing to admit it but SHEESH uh i am lovesick 🤡

I've been staying up till pass 8:00 in the morning and that gave me time to realize i am lovesick

Don't go start singing Lovesick girls by Blackpink there. i can see you 🔫🔫

anyways, THAT'S PROLLY THE REASON WHY I'M SUDDENLY PUSHING AWAY ALL THINGS THAT INCLUDES LOVE RN

The thoughts of the rejection incident last christmas is probably still taking damage on me

I just remembered saying I feel uneasy when I forced myself to continue the next chapter

I was forcing myself to write for the next chapter but since this book is abt love and shit it's just making me remember—

MF JUST BY THE MENTION OF HIS NAME ALL MY ENERGY JUST SUDDENLY DRAINS AND I'D JUST BE SO BLUNT

i'm sorry for dragging yall into my love life. i'm just afraid to deal with my own problems again since i always result to self-harm and i've already promised to not do that again ㅜㅜ

I WANT TO AVOID HIM BUT HE'S IN MY FRIEND GROUP AND HE EVEN WANTS TO PLAY WITH ME SINCE I JUST DOWNLOADED A GAME HE LIKES TO PLAY

how do i tell him i kinda feel down when i'm around him but i don't want him to think i hate him 😔🤌

does someone have discord ? anyone wanna do the liberty to tell him that for me? no? MAN

i wanna just 🤛🤛🤛🤛 a wall. my emotions are so god damn annoying

and i thought i hate real men 😟

i mean yeah i do tho 💅

that bitch-

anyways.

if yall didn't understand anything i just said basically, i'm taking a break from writing in this book since the story behind this book literally has something to do with 'him' and yeah i feel uneasy when i remember him and that just brings me a lotta levels down

Hope y'all understand and will wait for me again to recover. I know you guys have been waiting and have been patient with me since I've been through shit and you guys deserve the best book i can write.

I'll try my very best to NOT discontinue this book since I've seen a lot of you guys say that you guys want to see how this book will actually end.

But for now I really need a rest from all things that include love.

ILYSM FOR UNDERSTANDING AND PLEASE WAIT FOR ME AGAIN ^^ you guys are so precious to me fr and i dont want you guys to be left in the air with a discontinued book 💖💖💖

have this before you go <33 some of you may not know them but aren't they just cute? 😭

(📸 ctto.)