Sorrowed (Bbh)(by EdwardCa_A)

Chapter 10. Recalling unwanted memories

He paused, looking at me.

"Don't worry, go on. I will listen to you" I said trying to make him feel better and more secure.

He sighed and then took a deep breath.

"They were nice when we were little. Both me and Sehun felt really good at home. Everything was going well. One night when he was ten though, they took him in their room."

He looked at the floor and went on talking.

"I was waiting for him being curious of why they wanted him alone and in their room. I then heard him crying after a few minutes. He was telling them to stop and then he started asking for my help, seeing that they wouldn't. After half an hour of me trying to unlock the door, hearing them telling him to stop screaming, he stopped and the door opened. He was holding a belt and he put his finger on his mouth, showing me not to talk until we went into our room. He told me they were both really drunk and that they hit him with this belt. He then showed me the belt telling me that he had stolen it without them seeing it. They were indeed really drunk. They even started singing that night. "

He did a pause and then lowered his eyes, looking in terror and sadness.

"What happened after that?" I asked trying to encourage him to go on.

He still remained silent and a tear dropped from his eyes.

"Hey... Calm down. Everything is going to be alright. It's the past and it can't change now. And you should not fall behind with it. Talk to me and help yourself move on. " I said raising his head by holding his cheek.

He nodded once again. He seemed so in pain. So much that I felt so bad for making him talk about it. But he needed to take them off his chest. He needed to feel free. If he doesn't talk about it then he will just remain in the past, feeling miserable.

"Years passed. That night had stayed a faded memory in both of our heads. It seemed more of a nightmare that had slowly been erased from our mind. One day, I found a gun with a silencer hidden under to kitchen table. There was a hidden case there. I stole it, knowing that as the son of a mafia leader, I might need it in order to protect myself in the future. I started practicing from the age of 11, either way, so I had developed my skills. My aim was good enough after some time of training. So from that day, I had it, secretly, always on me"

He breathed heavily, trying not to let himself cry and held his chest.

"Night came. It was dark outside. Me and Sehun were chilling, chatting in our room. He was 13 and I was 15 back then. I went out to check how my parents were. My mother was cooking in the kitchen and my dad was sitting on the couch, watching tv. He suddenly stood up when he saw me and went to my mother. They said something really quietly, like they didn't want me to listen to them. It sounded like he asked if it was the right moment for something but I wasn't really sure. I then heard that he took something from a cupboard. Then, he walked outside and started walking towards me. His smile was way too nice. He told me to come closer. He had his hands behind his back but there was a mirror in the living room. I looked when he didn't notice and.... I saw a huge kitchen knife behind him. My eyes widened and I started thinking where my gun was."

His intense description made me look at him staying completely still. He wasn't crying anymore. Someone who doesn't know him well would say that he looked coldly, but I could see how depressed and betrayed he was feeling.

"He then said to me don't go further. Come here while smiling. I was taking steps further from him, giving myself time to think. I then grabbed my pants and it was there, hidden under my jacket. 'Come here, Baek. Your dad wants to give you a hug... and your final one' he said, starting to walk faster towards me. I quickly pulled the gun out and pointed it at him. He didn't give up walking though, as I thought he would. He went on. Ha, is it even cleaned or you will shoot and it will hit backwards from how old it is? You would never shoot me, would you? You are too stupid and useless to do so he said confidently while walking "