when im sad/having a depressive episode

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When people ask me how I'm doing I'll say fine because I've gotten used to this, I'm this I'm just numb I'm just this numb person who doesn't understand their feelings who doesn't understand why I'm sad or why today's been great and I still don't feel like doing anything I think it's because I do the same routine but then I realize I have so many fun things to do! So says everyone else but everyone else doesn't realize how I feel. They think I'm just being some some Teenager And if I am, then Teenagers scare me. Because they're never feeling fine. I don't think they feel anything if I'm just being a teenager..