Radiant || girlXgirl

Was That a Dream?

Chapter 6
TW: Sexual themes and references all throughout this chapter. Sexual acts are also described. (Sex dream kinda)

Ari's POV

What the actual fuck just happened?

I lock the bathroom door and slide down to the floor. I hold my breath, zoning out. Thinking over what just happened to me.  My body is still feeling the effects of her touch. More specifically... down there.

Her hands climbed up my thighs, under my skirt.

I shake the thoughts away, standing up and slashing some water in my face. I use the bathroom, wash my hands and walk out to face her. She had put her shirt back on while I was in the bathroom and was watching tv. I sit beside her.

"So.." I say.

"So what?"

She acts as if nothing fucking happened.

"So you're just going to act like everything is normal?"

"I'm not, I just don't know what to say?"

"Same really. I don't know what to think."

She smirks, "I know you liked it."

"Oh my god," I hide my face in my sleeve.

The air is thick with an awkward feeling. I know we both feel it. She grabs me and turns up the tv.

"Let's just watch some tv," she lays back in the bed, covering over. Here I sit, dazed and in shock. Do I like girls? I like her. I know I like her. God... why is this so hard? I've never been confused like this. My eyes fixate on her face. Her strong cheek, long brown locks, fitted bangs that shape her face, and her lips. The same lips that, not even minutes ago, were on mine. My heart races. I think... I feel so much. How?

"Ari, you're staring," she looks away from the tv.

I quickly look away, "sorry..."
For a moment we sit in silence before I lose it. 
"How are you so calm? Do you not realize what you... what WE just did?"
My hands fly into the air, "you're right! That isn't what friends do! I should've never done that or told you to do things!"

My heart drops and I feel a panic attack coming, "what happens if your-- MY parents find out about that? We'd be dead Audrey! They never liked any of my boyfriends- let alone a GIRLFRIEND!"

"Oh come on, they love me, Ari."

"ARE YOU SERIOUS!?"

"Ari, please, calm down," she grabs my hand and rubs her thumb over my knuckles.

"I'm sorry, this just changes everything."

"No, it doesn't. We're still the same. We're the same people. The same friends of 5 years."
She gives me a comforting look, "It's gonna be okay. Okay?"
I nod, "okay."
Even though I don't believe it, I said it.

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2 days later

I can't focus. I can't get it all out of my mind. It's like I'm always thinking about her. In the morning, at school, in my room, at night. I'm sitting in class, still thinking about her. I don't know if it's just me or not. Does she also think about me all the time now? 
"Ariana Monreo," the teacher calls.
"oh ... here!"
She moves onto the other names in roll call. I stare around the room. Watching each student say here. So many people I don't even know. I feel myself zoning out again. Slipping from reality....

MOAN MY NAME AGAIN

AUDREY

RING RING
"Oh my god!"
I'm shaken back into reality by the bell. I realized my body had reacted to my daydreaming. I go to leave before the teacher calls me over, "Ms. Monroe."
"Yes Mrs. Andrew."
She pulls me to the side after everyone leaves.
"I don't want to pry into your life but you haven't been as engaged in class. Is everything okay? You obviously don't have to answer. I just care about my students and if there is anything I can do to help, I would like to."

"Uh.... Everything is okay. I'm just a bit distracted. I think I like someone but I don't know," I don't mind talking to her because she doesn't know much about me and Audrey. I know that she has Audrey 4th period. 

"Oooh who is the lucky guy?"

"Um ," I stare at the ground, "...not a guy. It's a girl."
I'm afraid of her reaction because I've never seen someone react well to the idea of same-sex relationships.

"Oh okay, let me try again then," she clears her throat and then speaks up again.
"Ooooh who is the lucky gal?"

"Audrey."

"Oh wow. She's a sweet girl. Well, since you spent all class daydreaming," she nudges me playfully.
"Here's a copy of the notes I had planned for this lesson. I know you have a life outside of school. If you need anything, please don't be afraid to talk. I was young too once. I know what you're going through."

Tears come to my eyes, "Thank you, Mrs. Andrew."
I take the notes and leave. I turn the corner. I met Audrey waiting outside.
"What took you so long, shorty?"

"Oh sorry," my body heats up because of the nickname she used. That nickname brings back memories.

"Mrs. Andrew was giving me some notes."

She smiles, "okay. Well, do you wanna hang out after school? I was thinking of exploring the forest behind your house. I've always wanted to know what's back there, maybe climb a tree?"

"Uh I don't know, Audrey.  I have a lot on my mind."

"Oh okay. Do you want to talk about it," she asks, a tone of concern covering each word.

"It's nothing," I shrug.

"Okay but you know you can talk to me, right?"

"Yeah I know..."

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She drove me home while talking about how we should explore the woods this weekend. I told her we could after I finish my homework for this week.

I kick off my shoes and collapse in my bed. I don't understand how she can be so okay. Does she not think about it? Like... All the time? Literally how could she not?

I feel my body heat up again. My body reacts to all my thoughts. All of my emotions. It's pulsing throughout my whole being. God, I miss her. I want her back. Right here. In my bed. I close my eyes, sinking into my bed further.

Suddenly, I hear my window open with a gust of wind entering my room.

"Ari..."

I witness Audrey climb through and fall again.
"Man, you struggle with window seals, don't you?" I get up and help her off my dusty wood floors.

"You could've rang the doorbell," I giggle a bit.

"Yeah but that's no fun, is it?"

She grabs my hands, "look... I don't know if you've felt the same way but I- I um..."

"Can't stop thinking about that day," I finished her sentence. She stares into my eyes deeply.

"I thought about you last night...," she says, blushing a bright red.
"Those faces you made were so... I don't know how to describe it."

I blush shades of pink, "that's embarrassing, Audrey."

"No, no, they were good faces. I wanna see you make them again."

She forces me back and down onto my bed. Taking my shirt off. Her hands rub my sides, up, and into my bra. She softly runs her fingers over my nipples. I let out a soft moan.

"Audrey..."

"What is it, baby?" She leans forward, leaving kisses on my neck, up to my cheeks. She sets her lips on mine, grazing together slowly. She's so gentle with her kisses. Never aggressive but I know she's in charge.

"AUDREY!" I hear my dad yell and I'm shaken from my dream.
"Dinner is ready, sweetheart."

"Oh I'll be down in a second..."

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