The Eyesoulmate

Chapter 2

I panic not knowing what to do. Not because it's 7:21am and I may or may not be arriving to school late but because JACK MYERS IS HERE!. Jack is my best friend we've been friends since I was thirdteen so around five years we've been in each other's presence...I kinda may had developed a crush on him. 

But omg! It's Jack Myers! It's not a big deal though I guess. It's just the thought of a hot,smart,jock in my house-. Do you know how many girls would die right now if they were me. I couldn't get a chance with him if I wanted to though because he's dating Ellie . Her name is Ellie Brigham she's jacks boyfriend...oh um excuse me jacks girlf..,she looks like a man so you can tell where I got my little confusion from.  For some reason Ellie doesn't like me because of me and jacks relationship, it's okay though it's not like I like that "it" either,yes I did just call her a it. 

I wouldn't blame her though me and Jack relationship is pretty weird if you ask me and on top of that we are extremely close but there is no reason to be jealous of me....especially me. 

I jump out of my bed and push Jack out of my room while both slamming and locking my room door with no hesitation. 

"I'll be out soon just wait about maybe 20minutes?!"

I have nothing to wearrrrrr. I mean I have clothes but It's the first day of senior year I can't go looking.... like me.

Everyone has changed,especially me. My style has changed,I cut my hair,I had my "glo-up",I gained weight, in other words I am hot. I feel sooooo confident as in which I should. My weight gain looks great on me. I've been working on this for a while now,I deserve to feel confident within my body. It's been a while since I had. 

All my middle school years I've been bullied for my looks,social status, and my weight. People would get bullie because they are/were too skinny or not skinny enough. They weren't as pretty as other people and models they're being compared too and set in a lower class and being called "nerds" because how they look,act,and think.

At my school if you weren't "pretty" you would get bullied,if you weren't "fit" you would get bullied. I was bullied because I had braces,I was too skinny,and how I dressed. But over the few years I've gotten more respect from not only my peer's but for myself and I love every bit of it. I started not to care what others think. I'm myself and this is me and my body if I want to change I have ways. I'm not going to put myself down for the love of others,so every morning I would look in the mirror and say "I am beautiful" "everyone thinks I'm beautiful" "I love myself" "I am confident" and soon enough with belief I got my results. I didn't change for them I changed for myself. 

Authors note: I decided I wanted to make this chapter/episode about self appreciation and further more info for the character which I know I said the character is y/n(your name) but it's still in a book and y/n suffers with depression and anxiety and I wanted to explain kinda how she over came it and I realize there are other people in this world that suffers with the same outcome and if you ever need to talk to someone about anything my dms are open,always. I even gave out a personal email just for ideas and stuff. 

Spoil alert😩: Gavin will be showing up in the next episode or the fourth one!