How The Heat Touches My Skin

Chapter 2

One's mind is the biggest shackle to true freedom. In reality, there is more you can do than what you think you're able to. The chains of restrainment drag you to the bottom of the line where you don't belong. If you think a lot, why not do what you think more often. Overdoing what you overthink sounds like a good start to break free.

Once one of my favourite teachers quoted, "If you think you are bored, then lay off to buzz off from it." Back then it hit me hard because I thought laying off meant just sleeping it off since I slept like a log (15-16 hours).

On weekdays, the days pending works were submitted and upcoming works were still non-existent. I would rest my tired brain cells with sheer sleep. I was just 18 back then and now I will soon reach 22 in the next 3 months.

At present, in my mind, the quote meant something totally different. Life changed so drastically in a few years, it's unimaginable hence living on the change is the best to do. I was always living an extremely dry life [without excitement] so today's change wasn't so bad.

For the past few years, I would always take one sleeping pill during the days I had severe insomnia due to night terror but I couldn't take one yesterday since I still have to show my beautiful face to the soon-to-be wedded girl.

The meet-up is still in the afternoon. Her wedding ceremony is after 9 pm. I'm not fond of late-night parties, may it be a normal or betrothal ceremony.

I practically asked Mei once about the late timings and she replied without any remorse that she needs time to get her make-up and dress-up done perfectly, that's why the delay. This feels more like a fashion show than a knot-ceremony.

I dozed off on the floor thinking, "A sudden spark might change the entire pattern"
The morning breeze coming through the door felt heavenly.

Present morning,

At sharp 11, beautiful brown eyes of mine fluttered open. If anyone saw my entire existence, at first sight, they would probably notice a pair of deep, dark brown eyes. Back in my younger years, I never thought I was attractive. It was more like, thoughts were never wasted on these traits of outer beauty. Nowadays, whenever I look in the mirror, I remind myself that I'm the best-looking person in my world, second to none, and this world is full of myself.

On the other hand, you should live with what you're blessed with. My grandma always reminded me, humans made from clay will return to earth at the sheer end. So, why bother with these useless thoughts?

The shower water felt so warm when it touched my bare skin. "Of course, it was warm because you're under hot jet spray," my brain slapped back at my novelish mind.

After the shower, while drying my hair, I'm thinking about what to wear. At last, I ended up with something plain as jeans, a white shirt, and also a denim jacket on top. Finding such simple clothing amongst these fancy-designed dresses would probably be a big task for everyone. Who doesn't like exquisite accessories?

Well, these clothes make me feel way uncomfortable. Simplicity comes with an abundance of beauty. Too many extravaganza create unnecessary stumbles. Why buy uneasiness with money?'

I tucked my shirt in on the pants I'm wearing, put the jacket above, combed my hair with my fingers, and this is it.

Taking my bag, I opened the door to go out, took a deep breath, and whispered to myself mentally, "You're living the best life. Content and satisfied." I locked the door behind me after I prepared myself mentally, only decking up outer skin isn't gonna lead you well. So, make a ritual for yourself, a slogan, or anything to repeat when you're in a bad space. Instead of overthinking, make this the only thing you will think even if it's the end of time.