𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔𝚜 || 𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚡 𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚐𝚞𝚢 𝚘𝚌

𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚎

July 2nd

Me and Ethan texted all day. It was phenomenal- it felt like I had known him for my entire life. We talked about everything- our jobs,

Ethan: so what do you do for a living? i make youtube videos for children 👌

Me: ooh sounds fun i'll have to check out your channel sometime. as for me it's complicated i guess

Ethan: aw c'mon tell meeee

Me: well my mother feels guilty that we don't talk often or get along well so she's the one who bought my house and she pays a lot of my bills and it's really pathetic i know. but i do make my own money off doing art on tumblr to get shit like groceries. i love art.

Ethan: hey man no judgement here! i think that sounds super sick

Our pets,

Me: so you showed me your cat rudy, do you have any other pets?

Ethan: well before i moved out with my parents we had a dog named patches. he's pretty old, he has a bell. you got that chinchilla right?

Me: yes my chinchilla Sunny was literally my only friend before you. when i lived with my parents they had a dog but dogs honestly scare me- i'm getting another chinchilla soon to keep Sunny company

Ethan: i gotta come over one day and meet your chinchilla. those things are precious

Me: i've owned them all my life! my first one was a christmas present when i was nine!

Our families,

Ethan: so tell me more about you. like, okay, what's your family like

Me: well that could be a long conversation

Ethan: i've got all day

Me: buckle up buddy this is a fun one

Ethan: i'm all ears

Me: so growing up i lived in this huge creepy victorian looking house with my mom, my dad, my brother, and my grandparents. grandma and dad adored me, i was their favorite girl. me and mom didn't get along much because she wanted me to be girly and pretty and i wanted the exact opposite. my brother hates me, and i have no idea why. for as long as i can remember he's terrorized me and made my life miserable as a kid. he'd stick the dog in my bed even though i was scared of him, he'd pull my hair, push me into mud, and when i came out as trans he just used it to his advantage to be even tougher and meaner around me. my grandma, rosa, died when i was thirteen and my dad when i was sixteen. my grandpa moved out after my dad died, but we were never close anyways. so basically the two people who loved me in my family were dead, and my mom tried making up for it by trying to be nicer to me, but it kinda backfired. my brother got meaner after dad died and i ended up getting emancipated at 17 and moving out. my mom paid for my house and me and my brother never speak. uh yeah-

Ethan: Holy shit I'm so sorry

Ethan: That's awful

Me: meh, it's okay 💖💖 so what about you? i'm hoping you had a better childhood than me, man- whats your family like?

Ethan: Okay well I have a twin brother. we do the same thing for a living, we're tight, we like dis 🤞

Ethan: lmao i grew up in this house in the middle of the woods with my parents, elijah my dumb twin, and i got an older brother named ron. i moved out in 2018 with elijah and we live with our friends

Me: are you and elijah identical or fraternal?

Ethan: fraternal but we still look pretty similar

Me: man that's sick. you guys ever fight growing up like me and avery (my bro) or were you always that close?

Ethan: we fought like one time when we were seven? we were playing the sims urbz and he was like flirting with a girl and i left and he was so mad that he punched me in the leg with the strength of a man who's deviled eggs have been stolen

Me: LMAOOAOAOAOOO HELP

...our sexualities,

Me: so are you

Me: y'know

Me: 👍👌✌️

Ethan: are you asking me if i'm bisexual

Me: yes

Ethan: oh ok yea

Ethan: and your trans right? like female to male?

Me: yeah yeah, i'm also gay so i'm like the packaged deal. also youre*

Ethan: you could tell i was bi bc like ur gaydar or something? also you're*

Me: ur stupid i hate u

Ethan: You're stupid, I hate you*

Me: shut up u punk

It seemed like we couldn't stop talking for the life of us. I got literally nothing done that day, but in my eyes, it was so worth it.

Me: ugh stupid question but it came to my mind out of nowhere, do you ever get that feeling where it's like you feel like you're just less superior to other people? does that make sense?

Ethan: no no i get what you mean and yes, probably a little more often than i'd really like. and y'know it like just makes you so sad that you don't want to do anything anymore?

Me: what the hell yes exactly!! where were you when teenage me thought no one understood him??

Ethan: man i've only known you since yesterday but i feel like i've known you since kindergarten

Me: dude same here. we really should hang out sometime soon

Ethan: i mean dude are you free tomorrow?

Me: Oh hell yes

I had been so excited afterwards that I could hardly sleep when the time came. I couldn't wait to know him for longer. I wanted to be his friend forever, this summer was going to be awesome.

Right?