As much as it pains me to actually write this, it has to be done.
Don't get me wrong, I love each and everyone of you, but the pressure is adding up on me. Like it's almost swallowing me and forcing me to write and I try to force myself to write a preference and get it up quickly which makes them look very shitty. Sorry if there are any misspellings in this I'm just crying. I never thought that I would actually get that far with these things and here I am at 40. Something k reads.
I always thought I was a shit writer and I would just do this as a joke and make myself look like a fool. Honestly if you guys didn't comment telling me to continue then I would've quit a long long time ago. I'm not deleting this book as it has too much of me in it already. My heart is heavy and it's really hard to let to of something so big. I'm trying to handle the stress of managing this, but you guys honestly don't know the hate messages I get. Here's an example of one;
"Leda, honestly why are you trying so hard? No one likes you or cares about you. Honestly when you posted your dumb ass suicide note, no one cared and I was silently hoping that you actually succeeded, but nope you failed. You fail at everything. I hope you actually die the next time you try to kill yourself, here's a tip also, it's down the hill not across the road."
Fun right? I don't know if I'm just gonna leave all together or just take a small hiatus, most likely a hiatus because I actually have some writings that may go into the drabbles. I'm just gonna take a hiatus from this book for at least a month.
I want to focus more on making myself happy and on my school work. I'm trying out for my cheer squad and I'm training really hard and it's becoming sorta in the way as it one of my main priorities. I honestly hope you guys understand my decisions. If you ever need to contact me or just talk my kiks are
MrsQueenKellin (for my iPad)
MrsQueenBiersack (for my phone)
If you need my phone number then message me.
See you April 8th :),
Leda R
"Darling You'll be okay."
