Loki x male reader

This is what i'd do for you.

Loki looked at you from across the dining table. You didnt have a clue why.

He looked as if he'd been lost in his imagination.

"Loki!" You heard Thor hiss-whisper to Loki, "Stop staring."

Loki sighed.

"May i be excused." He simply asked.

"Alright, i guess." said steve.

Loki stood up, his chair scooted backwards. And he walked out the room.

somethings wrong with him. You thought. He usually talks all the time during dinner.

Loki had always been the life of dinner. Everything was quiet and awkward without him.

He only was here because he was sometimes useful to the avengers.

"Im gonna go." You said, excusing yourself.

You heard a flow of nerous chatter as you walked out the room, following the trail of open doors Loki left.

It stopped at the elevator. It was on the top floor.

You hopped in the second one and waited for the top.

When the doors opened you saw loki, his legs dangling off the edge.

You walked out slowly, creeping up on the god.

"Hello?" You called.

Loki stayed silent.

You went and sat next to him.

"You alright?" You asked nervously.

Loki turned to face you, he grabbed your hand and reached into an inside pocket of his tuxedo.
He pulled out a small knife and he placed it in your hand.

Loki placed the knife against his neck, your hand still grasping it.

"Do it." Loki said, without emotion.

You gasped and tried to move away. Loki's firm grasp on your hand stopped you.

You looked at him. A tear rolled down his face as he shut his eyes, his hair looked scruffy and uncared for. But your eyes drifted to his neck.

It was too pretty to cut.

Loki let go of your hand.

"Do it. Its weak to take your own life." he sighed.

You felt your hands shake and you took the knife away.

"Why not."

"I cant!"

"Nobody cares about me, im a monster."

"You are no monster, youre the nicest man i know."

"Well you are. Special. Others dont look at me that way." Loki implied.

"You shouldnt care what others think." You started,

"Loki," You took a deep breath. "I love you."

Loki smiled.

"I- I do too."

Loki took the knife off you.

"As the god of mischief you need trust in me," Loki started. "This is what i'd do for you."

He span the knife around and pushed it into his chest.

"Surprise." He gasped as he fell into your arms.

"Loki! Loki you idiot!" You cried.

Tony came rushing up, as if he'd waited for now to interupt.

"Loki! Whats happened?!" steve called from behind.

"H- He stabbed himself!" You cried.

He lives but i cant be bothered to carry on