TW: ed (eating disorder)
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Maybe,
If I was skinny,
I would be happy.
Maybe,
If I liked me,
I wouldn't cry as much.
Maybe,
If someone noticed,
I would stop.
But maybe,
Isn't good enough.
600 calories,
Is all i've had today.
I couldn't move too fast,
Or my head,
Would start to ache.
But,
That's not a problem.
Because,
I stayed within my limit.
Hopefully,
One day,
The pain will be worth it.
I can't wait,
Until the day,
someone says to me;
"You're so skinny,
And you look so pretty!"
I just want,
To be wanted,
No matter the cost.
I hope i'm right,
Because otherwise,
I think i'll be lost.
If anyone asks;
"How did you do it?"
I won't tell them,
About my calorie deficit.
I'll laugh and smile,
And just simply say;
"Workouts and,
Healthy eating!"
I won't tell them,
About my calorie limit.
I won't tell them,
About the dizziness,
The headaches,
And the sickness.
They can't know,
That I went through that,
Just to be classed as;
'Pretty'
I'm scared,
Scared that,
they'll laugh.
I'm scared,
Scared that,
they'll call me silly names.
I'm scared,
That if I tell anyone,
They won't class me as:
'Pretty'
;Anymore.
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