INSEMINATION

Chapter 3: Them

Chapter 3: Them

Someones POV

Behind this happy face of mine, hides a sad memory that I can never forget. Her face, her voice and the sound of her laugh, I didn't know that I will regret every happy memory with her. Because all that memories cause me pain. I shouldn't have let her go but she didn't give a chance to even fight for her. I didn't believe, No, I still don't believe every word she said that night. I know there is something provoking her. I know her. And she knows me well that I won't believe her that's why she left immediately after that night. This pain, after years had passed, is still carved in my heart. At the first months of her leaving me, I looked pathetic. I didn't talk and laugh. Shit! I never knew the feeling of being brokenhearted. I often laugh when my friends act damn pained because of love. I was very happy that I didn't think I will experienced it first-handed.

"I'm sorry" why did she have to say that. Arrgg. At least after all I had experienced. I even thought of killing myself. But nuh, Even angels rejected my decision that when I cut my wrist that time, I didn't die. Awesome. I seek death but it run away from me. What did I do with my life to deserve this punishment?.

Napapa-english talaga kapag naalala siya. Kaiyak. The only girl I love to the point of sacrificing everything is no long beside me. The feeling of losing her is so damn painful that I still cry every night thinking of her.

I expressed every pain in the songs I write. Minsan na isip ko it is a good thing naman, when she left me, my life was a wrecked but because of that I focused on my real first love. MUSIC.

Before I met her I wrote music, highly dedicated to my friends and family. But when I met her, I never knew the feeling of being in love. The feeling is so new to that I wrote music about it as an outlet and everyone thinks it is sweet. After the break-up, I really don't have anything to write on about except this pain.

FLASHBACK

"Den-ie~! Pag nawala ako kaya mo bang mabuhay ng mag-isa?"

Nanonood kami ngayon sa kwarto ng movie. Nakasisik siya sa dibdib ko habang yakap yakap ko siya sa sofa.

"Siyempre kaya ko. Bakit ikaw lang ba ang babae? Edi pag iniwan mo ko maghahanap ako ng iba." Syempre joke lang yun sa sobrang love ko ditto baka magsuicide ako after niyang mawala sa tabi ko. Sweet ko diba. Susundan kita saan ka man naroroon. Pero bakit kaya niya natanong? Nakita ko siyang nakatingin sa akin ng seryoso. Parang sinasaulo niya ang buo kong pagkatao. At saka ngumiti.

" Mabuti naman. Kasi ako rin eh. Alam mo na sabi nila. Walang forever. One day anjan lang sila. The next wala na." Seryoso naman nito masyado -_-

"Ano ka ba?? Joke lang yun. Syempre di ko kaya. Lumayo ka nga lang sakin ng isang dangkal namimiss na agad kita. Paano pa kaya kung mawala ka na. Edi nabaliw na ako sa kakaisip sayo." Niyakap ko pa siya ng mahigpit. Ginantihan niya rin naman ako.

"Zayden Kinsley ng buhay ko!" tawag niya sa akin.

Natawa ako. Ang cute niya kasi.

"baket po Marian Louisa Lee ko na magiging Marian Louisa Kinsley na?"

And we both giggle.

"I love you very much po~! Ikaw lang ang lalaking minahal, minamahal at mamahalin ko po sa buong buhay ko." Napangiti ako sa sudden confession niya.

"Are you that desperate Love? Is that a confession? Do you want me to marry you right now? Right here? O gusto mo na mauna si honeymoon?" I teased.