Mirrors Paralell //Jikook

12

"Soooo hot!" I hear Jungkook whine out. Indeed, it has been very hot recently.

It's been around 2 weeks since the incident with Namjoon and nothing else has really happened. A couple of kisses here and there, and we've definitely grown closer. The only interesting thing that happened this week was that me, Tae and Hobi went swimming, but even they didn't want to leave their homes at first. I had to convince them.

"I have to agree with you Kookie," I answer him. I get myself up from the couch and make my way over to the fridge. I grab a beer and sit back on the couch.

My health has been... better recently, but with this heat, I really doubt it will be for long. The hotter I feel, the more I feel like collapsing, but nothing has happened yet, thankfully. If I we're to collapse at home with no help, then I don't know what would happen. I've talked about this with Jungkook, and he says that if I feel really bad, then I should tell him straight away, so he could reach out to someone. I really didn't want to bother namjoon with my health problems, but now I atleast have someone to call if I have an emergency. I'm thankful for that.

"It's such a shame I can't sit with u over there. That beer looks good..." says Jungkook pouting. I turn my attention to him and giggle slightly. He's so cute sometimes!

"This beer does taste really good, Kookie," I say back while taking a sip from the can of beer. He starts pouting even more, which makes me giggle more.

 "Don't tease me! You don't know how long I haven't had beer for?! Even I don't know!" An angry bunny yells at me. This makes me laugh , making me spit out the beer that was in my mouth. I cough a couple of times, still laughing while looking at the angry bunny. I whipe the beer off of my chin with a napkin.

"Don't laugh!" I hear Jungkook grown in frustration. I stop laughing and take a few breaths in. I turn my attention back to the mirror to see that Jungkook is not there anymore. I sigh and lean onto the couch, closing my eyes. My mind is filling with thoughts. It's been a rough week if I'm being honest. I fell in love, overcame my fear of mirrors, fell in love, made my friends see the person I fell in love with and fell in love. Hmm... God, I fell in love!

I've just now realised. I have fallen in love. I have never fallen in love! Jungkook is the first person I have fallen in love with. Is he even a peson? Can I call him that? Just thinking about him makes me feel all warm inside. I have kissed him a couple of times, and I don't regret any of those kisses. His lips were so sweet and soft, a little rough though, but it was good. How did I even kiss him in the first place? Will he ever be real, in my arms? How in the name of god did I feel his lips?!

All of these unanswered questions make me go dizzy, but out of all of these questions, one lingers in my mind. Will he ever, truely, be here with me? Cuddeling me, kissing me, holding my hand. Will he be here to do all of these things? I know for a fact that it's not me having some sort of hallucinations, because Namjoon, tae and Hobi have seen him, but sometimes I have a feeling that he just isn't real. I always try to stay positive, thinking that maybe he is real, but soon it sounds so unrealistic that I can't imagine him being here with me, next to me. I feel like I'm just making myself look like a fool at this point, but he's the first person... I've ever fallen in love with. I just have to stay positive! I just have to hold on a little lon-.

"Hey... Are you okay?" 

I come out of my thoughts and open my eyes. I turn to look at the mirror where I meet eyes with a quite worried looking Jungkook. 

"I'm okay Kookie, just thinking about... stuff," I answer. I'm not lying here.

"What stuff where you thinkig about? Do you know how worried I was?!"

"I was just thinking Kookie. And what were you so worried about, huh? I'm right here," I scoff back. His expression turns stiff. Why would he be so worried? I didn't go anywhere?

"You weren't answering me! I thought something bad had happened to you!" Okay, now he is just being ridiculous!

"Jungkook... why in the name of god would of anything have happened to me? It's not like I was on the ground dying, now was I?" I say with a annoyed tone. His expression turns from stiff to anger. I have messed up, haven't I?

"... I was worried about you.. and you are annoyed?" Jungkook says with a not so nice tone.

"I just asked why would of something have happened to me. I was just thinking Jungkook, don't make such a big deal out of it!" I reply back, not in the mood for this.

"..."

Jungkook doesn't say anything for a while, and it's making me nervous. His face is expressionless. I have truely messed up...

"What where you thinking about?"

"What?"

"I asked, what were you thinking about?" asks Jungkook. You can hear from his voice that he isn't happy, not one bit.

"What does it matter to you, huh?! They are just my thought," I reply with a rude tone, voice rising a bit. Stop, jimin!

"What. were. you. thinking. about? Is it so important that you can't tell me?! What were you, thinking about something like I won't get out of this stupid mirror?!" Jungkook yells back. My anger just keeps rising and rising, and I finally snap.

"Yes! Yes! I was thinking of that! I was thinking of how you probably will never be here and probably are just some hallucinations of mine! I was thinking of the fact that you probably aren't real and never will be! And even if you were real, I doubt that you'd actually love me!" I yell at him, letting all of the frustration out. I can see his expression change. His anger disappears, and it's replaced with hurt and sadness. I see a tear fall down his cheek. 

The anger I had is now gone. I feel like I've said this so many times, but I have truely messed up.

"Jungko-"

"Don't... I knew you would think I wouldn't be real.. that's understantable... but I do love you! I've said it so many times. Why do you still doubt me?" says Jungkook, more tears falling down his cheeks. My chest tighten while I look at him. No, Kookie...

"Kookie, list-"

"D-don't, please d-don't. I know, I u-understand if y-you don't w-want to see me a-again," Jungkook says while letting out a sob. He starts to disappear. I quickly sit up, trying to grab the mirror before he disappears.

"Kookie, no!" I yell out desprately, but he's already gone. I let out a sob. I fall back onto the couch, covering my face with my hands, quietly sobbing and begging for him to come back.

I have messed up...