The only one

Chapter 6: the past

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I swallowed the pills one by one. And as soon as I knew it I passed out. I don't know how many days later I woke up but I woke up on a hospital bed feeling like I'm dead. I saw my dad walk in and my mom sobbing. I had a tube down my throat so I couldn't speak. I hated my dad so much. He ruined this family.
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Okay so you're probably wandering what happened to me and my family so let me just tell ya. I was 13 when I found my dad cheating on my mom I was already dealing with depression so that just pushed me over the ledge. I overdosed on pills and that was just the beginning. My mom had bad depression after that she wouldn't eat for days. One day me and my dad were in an argument and my mom asked what we were arguing about. I told her he cheated on her. That night I found my mom hung herself In our kitchen. My dad was now the only parent I had and he blamed me for my moms death.
He beat me and told me I was worthless. One day I had enough so I packed everything and grabbed a knife. I told my dad if he ever came to find me I would kill him. And with that I ran away and put myself into a foster home at the age of 16. Yea I don't know if my dad is still alive but I sure as hell don't want to see him.

It was probably 3 in the morning I couldn't sleep I was constantly thinking about my dad and my life. I have become a completely different person since then but I still hurt from it. I wanted to call someone but I didn't know who. Dan would just be awkward and the two girls I just met I don't know well. I resorted to chuck. I found his name and called him.
"Hello" he said in a arrogant voice.
"Hey I can't sleep and I need someone to talk to" I said crying.
"Can we have sex if I come over?" He asked I could tell he had a smirk on his face.
"Fine" I said.
"I'll be right over" he says.
What have I gotten myself into I'm a virgin the most I've done is gotten a hickie. And I can tell chuck has had much experience. I was wearing a long Star Wars Tshirt with no pants on. I guess it didn't matter.
I go into the bathroom and look at myself. I new I wasn't fat but I still looked at my body and hated it.
I laid back down and pulled my soft covers over my body. I hear a knock and I get up to open the door. I wipe my face from my tears.
"Hey" I say trying to smile.
I giggle faintly at his outfit.
"I've never seen you look so casual" I say
He was wearing a white Tshirt with grey sweat pants and moccasins. They were probably Calvin Klein sweat pants but hey. His hair was hanging freely I front of his face with no gel to hold it back. I pulled him in my room. And I stood on my tippy toes to run my fingers through his hair. We start to kiss and we get on the bed . He takes my shirt off and I had no bra on. He starts to kiss my neck and then I start to get nervous as he takes his pants off. He starts to take off my underwear and I freak.
"Chuck I'm a virgin" I say.
"Really?" He says
"Yea" I say covering my face with my hands.
He moves my hands from my face and kisses me softly. Rolling over next to me.
"What did you want to talk about?" He asks.
"Never mind you probably don't care anyways" I said.
"Just talk to me as if you were talking to nugget" he says.
" well I had dream or a flashback of when I tried to kill myself" I said.
"Why did you try to kill you're self?!" He asks "you're like the happiest person I know" he says.
"I was bullied and I had depression" I said.
He was looking at me closely.
"Is that a tattoo?" He says pointing at my collar bone. It was an arrow with the word free.
"Oh yea" I say touching it.
"I got that on my 18th birthday"
"It reminds me that I'm free from my past" I say yawning and closing my eyes.
"Good night" he says.