Not built for love

HIM

Hi my name is Talia Agata healani my name means god's dew,good hearted,and haze from heaven's i am 21 years old and single i have a very interesting life i have been bullied have overcomed it,have been abused but escaped, raped,and have never forgoten it and my supposly love of my life cheated on me, abused me and druged and raped me i ran away from him and decided to hide out i lost my virginaty at 14 becuz my stepfather raped me ive had two miscarraiges and i still have no one to love my mom never cared for me lets take a flashback in to my life.
(flashback)
I was walking home from school one day and i got to my abusive house and walked in.once i stepped in i heard my mom walk downstaris.
Me:hi mom
Mom:wat did u call me
Me:m-mo-mom
Mom:THATS NOT MY NAME U STUPID BITCH ITS LATASHA
She grabed my hair and slamed me into the wall
Me:AHHH STOP PLEASE
Latasha:(whispering)u better not ever call me mom again
She unclenched my hair and i ran upstaris to my room and cried five minutes later i heard the door slam i knew it was my stepfather he was a deadbeat drunk i then heard heavy footsteps coming up i was laying on my bed wen i heard my bedroom door slam open revealing my drunk stepfather i looked at him he came stagering over to me he bent down and kissed me on my lips i jumped back and he said
Stepdad:wats wrong babygirl(sluring)
Me:umm leave please kevin
Kevin:why would u want that
He grabed my legs and pull my pants down
Me:ahhh STOP STOP
U pretty much know wat happened
(flashback over)
My inocence was taken i was now living with my bestfriend amalia she and august are perfect for each other and she made me her baby's godmother the little babys name is aj of coarse for "august jr" i really wanted to start a new life. wen i was younger i wanted to become a wrestler i still want to do it i then thought about it and decided to call up my friend joe anoia he is a wrestler by the name of roman reigns i called him up.
Me:hello
Joe:hello
Me:hey joe i need to ask u something
Joe:what Talia
Me:i wanna get in wrestling can u help me
Joe:yea sure but u need to have some wrestling expirence so i will put u in fcw and they will train u meet me tomorrow at the phillps arena at 3 k
Me:k bye give little jojo a kiss for me
I hung up the phone and went upstaris i told august and adora about me trying for wrestling and they were happy for me i kissed baby aj and walked out i was gonna go to the gym but before i walked out i looked at my nemesis "THE MIRROR" Why u ask that its my nemesis becuz wen i look in the mirror i feel unpretty i wont tell u my weight but juz know that i wouldnt wanna be around me.
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I walked in the gym to see ppl working out i was gonna to get in shape this is the that all the big hollywood stars come to i seen keri hillson , ciara , drake,lil wayne and many more i went over to where i could engage my core wen i got over there i didnt know how stuff worked i juz starred at it then a man who looked about 21 came over and sat at the bench press and started to bench press me being me i juz took out me galaxy and turned my music i started listening to 5fdp "wrong side of heaven"
(music comes in)
I spoke to god today and he said that shes ashamed what ive become and wat have i done
I looked at myself in the mirror and saw this girl with no life i didnt know who this wat.
I spoke to the devil today and he said hes not to blame what have i become and wat have i done.
I felt like i had no life i wanted to end it all i felt like someone was staring at me.
(chorus)
ARMS WIDE OPEN I STAND ALONE IM NO HERO AND IM NOT MADE OF STONE NO RIGHT OR WRONG I CAN HARDLY TELL IM ON THE WRONG SIDE OF HEAVEN AND THE RIGHTOUS SIDE OF HELL.
As the song ended i felt a tap on my shoulder i turned around and seen the man who was bench pressing i looked into his soft caramel eyes he had on leather sweats no shirt and some jordans on me i had on light blue leggings and a tight spandex bra but my flabby stomach was showing he said
Him:uhh excuse me i need to get these (pointing to the dumbells)
Me:huh uh-uh oh sorry
Him:(laughing)its ok babygirl
I startedoving then i tripped on the mat and started to fall until
Me:whoa wooo- gcf
Him:(catches talia) whoa baby girl u alright
Me:yea thx oh gosh im so stupid and clumsy and dumb and fat and- gcf
Him:hey hey hey girl u r not all those things in fact u kinda cute matter fact u sexy wats ur name
Me:talia healani. U?
Him:bry-bryshere gray
Me:oh well um see u later
Bryshere:hey hey wats wrong why u tryna leave (grabs talia's hand)
Me:well u dont want me im to fat and ugly
Bryshere:Girl if think u ugly c wat happens to all them thots wen they only 30
Me:(chuckles)but look i dont have the best looking body
Bryshere:lemme help that comere(taking talia's hand)
Bryshere took my hand and took me over to this thing with pedals
Me:wat is that thing
Bryshere:its called a cross trainer it helps build ur core while u can pick allat ass up in the back.
He said looking at my butt.
Me:(chuckling) umm how does it work
Bryshere:step on
Me:ok
I steped on bry pressed the button to level 1 it started going and i staryed getting tired gosh this is tiring
(few hours later)
96...97...98.. Come on baby girl u got it ....9-9-99 one more come on 1-1 come on 1-1-1-100 u did it
Me:OMG HUH HUH I NEED WA-WA-
Bryshere-what? wa what is wa
Me:WATER I NEED WATER
Bryshere:oh hold on here u go(handing talia a cold water)
I took the water and nearly swallowed the whole thing in a gulp i was sweating so bad u would think i stood in the rain
Bryshere:wow u did good baby girl can i-can i call u sometime
Me:(breathing heavy) wh-wh-who me
Bryshere:hell yea u know u look sexy sweating
Me:thx
We traded phones and i put in "Talia"
He put in "Future man "
We said our goodbyes i left and went home i went inside ready to take a shower and just relax i walked in to see adora dancing and singing to "rock and roll by:avril lavigne"
When its u and me we dont need know one to tell us who ta be will keep turning up the r-a-dio wen its and i just put up a middle finger to the sky let em know that will still rock and roll
She started swaying her hips and whipping her hair back and forth. I just walked by and took a shower and went to my room till i feel asleep