Bad Intentions

Chapter 6

                                                                              Justin's POV

Disgusted by my actions of the night before, I entered my car and stuck the key into the ignition to turn it on. I was going to Liv's to try and get her to talk to me. I felt dirty and like I betrayed her by sleeping with Hailey again. I got too drunk and my mind was in a bad place. I thought I blew it with Liv. When I woke up sober, I realized I didn't try hard enough. Now I have this secret to keep. If she knew I had Hailey over, she would never give me a second chance.

As for the blow, I could stop that easily for her. I really didn't have any sort of problem with it. I just had leftover from my party and meant what I said about being tired. Mistake after mistake, mistakes were my specialty. I didn't cheat on her but it felt that way. I swore to myself it was the last time with Hailey and this time I meant it.

I wanted her. I've only been in one relationship in my life, with Hailey, which lasted four years. In high school, I was known as the guy that never cuffed, only hooked up. College came along and Hailey and I met. I was crazy about her. I would definitely consider her my first love. The first couple years were perfect and we even lived together. Then she started getting comfortable. I came home one day to another man in our bed. I'm such a hopeless romantic that I convinced myself what we had was true love. It never really was. She would apologize over and over again, then cheat. Over and over again. One day I finally had enough and I kicked her out of my house. We continued hooking up after that but I refused to be exclusive with her again.

I never cheated on her once. Believe me, there were times when I wanted to. Not because I was malicious but because I craved revenge. I wasn't a spiteful person, no matter how hard I tried to be. She turned me cold, it seemed, but I still remained loyal. Always.

I wasn't planning on ever telling Liv what happened with Hailey the night before. There was no reason to. We weren't together yet, and it was the last time. I was lonely and vulnerable.

I pulled into her apartment parking lot and parked my car in one of the guest spots near her place. Sent her text asking to talk before making my way towards her door. If she didn't answer within ten minutes, I was going to knock. I didn't know what she drove, so I wasn't even completely sure she was home. I just hoped for the best.

As I approached her door, it swung open. What terrible timing that was. She looked confused and surprised but still let me inside. I stood in her apartment as she closed the door. Not sure what to do next, she offered we sat on the couch.

"But take off the shoes first," She demanded. I took them off then followed her to sit. She sat far away from me and stared without saying a word, waiting for me to start talking.

"Look, I don't do coke a lot, okay? I don't have a problem and now that I know that you used to, I will never bring it around you again. If you want this as much as I want this, I will not do any at all, whether you're around or not. I had an amazing time last night. You're the most beautiful girl I've ever laid my eyes on and I don't think I'd ever forgive myself if I let you slip through my fingers."

"I had fun too," she said softly. "No more coke, okay? I don't care what you do when I'm not around. Just don't do it when you're with me. As for wanting this," She put air quotes around wanting this, "what is you want?"

"To see you more, to see where this goes. I like being around you. You're super down to earth, not stuck up, funny, sweet, beautiful..." I trailed off. She giggled nervously and her cheeks flushed.

"Thanks," She said. "I like you too."

Wanting to bring up what Hailey told me last night, I bit my tongue. I still didn't believe it. A part of me wondered how I would react if it were true and I wasn't sure how I would handle it. I don't think I could continue what we had and deep down, I wasn't ready for that to end.