How to Fall Out of Love in Ten Easy Steps (ON HOLD)

Step 1 : Out of Sight, Out of Mind is a Big Myth

Author's note- I accidentally published the chapter while writing yesterday. I was feeling awful because that definitely got your hopes up and crashed them down. So, I  am positing the draft of the chapter here. The book is still on hold at least until May-June next year.  But I'll be putting up the drafts of the chapter as I finish them. I take around three months to write a single chapter, if I focus on one book (which I am not doing right now.) So, even if the book gets updated, things will change when I edit it out properly and the updates will be slow.

TLDR- I am uploading unedited drafts. Things can change later when I have finished the drafting and begun editing.

Happy reading!

Out of Sight, Out of Mind is a Big Myth.

"So what is the first step?" I asked Svetlana before my heart could make me give into my delusions again.

"I'll tell you tomorrow. Just get some rest tonight."

She hung up before I could insist. Tomorrow, I may not have the courage to keep the flashlights on and Omkaara out. Tomorrow, I may end up flinging the door open and running in the light drizzle to bang on his car door begging to be let in. Tomorrow, I may realise how loving him was a choice I had made so long ago, a choice that had almost seemed like a long kept vow. Tomorrow, I might run back to him, I might fall the other way and try to get in deeper.

These scenarios were all there somewhere in the labyrinth of my mind as a possibility, one I had to prepare for.

My daydreams though, didn't ever consider the fact that today, Omkaara could open his car door, walk in the muddy pools of water left by the premonsoon shower and knock on my window.

I rolled the window down trying to furiously wipe any remains of the tears I had shed.

"Your car must have run out of battery. The lights turned off. Come, I'll drop you home." He spoke softly, like he was scared it could trigger another meltdown.

I nodded getting my things and leaving the car in the front parking. I would need to get back to take it. "I can take a cab."

"You can take my car. I'll take a taxi." He offered immediately.

I gave his black SUV a side glance. It was much larger than anything I had ever driven. "I doubt I can return it to you unscathed if I take it today."

"You can run a bulldozer over it. I won't mind." Omkaara tried to joke. He was still far too gloomy and sincere for it to be a joke. He meant it. When it came to repentance, Omkaara knew no boundaries or self preservation.

"Would you add me to your will, if I asked?" I was actually curious for his answer.

"I would even let you kill me after I stamp it." He replied now, obviously joking.

I didn't laugh though. I glared at him as I scolded, "You really need to learn not to let guilt override your senses. Do you know how much advantage I can take of your desperate attempt to make it up to me?"

"But I do know the extent of hurt I have inflicted, Gauri. I know you're not someone who cries. Priyanka told me about how you didn't even cry on the last day of school. But you cried because of what I did to you. That is enough for me to know that I messed up, badly."