𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐃𝐚𝐦𝐧𝐞𝐝 - 𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞

𝐁𝐄𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐍𝐃.

     The first time I felt my Alpha, I nearly went insane.

     When you're a child, as an omega, you're told one day you'll find your Alpha, that your concerns will all vanish and you'll be safe from this world. To me? That had always been a bunch of bullshit. Safe? I don't need anyone to feel safe. And I guess since a young age, my thought process has been the same: I can protect myself, I can fend for myself. For some reason, I took up martial arts and made sure to always rise above challenges. No, Xu Minghao answers to no one, not even the peskiest Alpha. Nasty alphas. Little did I know the Korean Entertainment Industry was just a facade to their needs. Regardless, from my group, I'm not really requested anyway, so safety is something almost granted for me. I pity my fellow omegas, of course, like Dino and Seungkwan, who always come back a mess from their monthly visits, but at least it isn't me.

     But when I scented him? Or her? I nearly went insane.

     We were on Mnet, promoting HOME;RUN. Yes, it was a couple of months ago. Our changing room is always a little bigger, but for thirteen members, is still very small. The stench was even worse since Seungkwan was in heat, and both Wonwoo and S. Coups were in rut— fortunately, the three of them were in suppressants, so they were rather ... under control. Maybe a little bit moody, but that was easy to manage, putting them all in different corners. Either way, the stench inside the room was smothering, there were no windows to open, so I ended up excusing myself after putting on my suit and leaving the room. Was that my mistake? Yes. But I really couldn't endure any longer the disgustingly sweet scent the omega in heat gave, and by the look of the other alphas, they had little to no patience either. Seungkwan always had a sweet scent, of honey and roses, but when he was in heat? It was unbearable. It didn't help he hadn't found his Alpha, so you could feel the struggle the other Seventeen alphas were enduring. At the moment, only S.Coups had his omega, and she was nowhere near at the moment, so he himself was going through it. 

     My first deep breath was normal. Nothing but the remaining disgustingly sweet scent of Seungkwan with coffee from nearby and sweat from other groups performing. It was almost too normal, but at that moment, ironically, it didn't even cross my mind. My head turned as I hear the door behind me opening, scrunching my nose at the scent once more but nothing compared to the nauseated expression from DK, who quickly shut the door while a loud whine was heard. He sighs, rubbing his temples as he walks to me.

     —They're trying to force the suppressants on him. He says they're making him feel sick, but we can't keep enduring this scent. You feel it too, right? — I nod, and he rolls his eyes — I obviously don't know how it feels like, but I can't help him how I want to, the manager failed to give our Alphas and Omegas different rooms so now everyone is on edge. Does it make sense?

     Again, all I can do is shake my head. DK is a beta— granted, very much rid of any painful heat or rut, someone who really just wants to help. I know his heart, and there isn't anything purer. Even more, DK has the special ability to be able to change someone's mood, so I can't imagine how emotionally drained he must be from controlling the alphas' moodiness and Seungkwan's sorrow. My hand pats his shoulder and he gives me one of his signature sweet smiles, touching my hand. DK is not my designated beta— he's Dino's, however, we have a bond that no one can describe. I would gladly remain his partner if it came to it, but we both know we're destined to greater things, or he is. I really hoped my alpha was dead. My designated beta is Jun, which made sense since he was the only one I could lean on since the beginning. How I envied him. Regardless, Jun didn't usually treat me like an omega— none of them did. Only S. Coups used the word of the Alpha and it was rare when he did. It just made sense he was also the leader.