𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐃𝐚𝐦𝐧𝐞𝐝 - 𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞

𝐌𝐘 𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐓 𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐆𝐀.

     I was still shaking in the car two hours after we left Mnet.

     They had been there. It was so blatantly obvious, all my instincts had been of fire as I was dragged out. And I had to be because my omega was there. I wonder if they're hurt I left them behind. I wonder if their heart is broken, I wonder if I'll be able to repair it. I know painfully well how omegas don't find logic in the peak of their emotions. Which translated to me in heartbreak and sorrow and I had felt them loud and clear. So I felt my body trembling in poorly contained anger and rage, two very similar emotions that I had never felt before. Jackson quietly puts his hand over mine, dark eyes filled with sympathy as we stop at the farthest McDonalds. I know we had to put distance between me and my omega since apparently, they were to perform next, and I couldn't disturb recordings. How bad could that be? Very bad. Youngjae hyung had made the same mistake but during shooting something, and he was an omega. His now Alpha, Minnie, had been so endeared by the silly behavior by the horny omega, but it had been a hassle for the recording crew. 

     But could you blame him? It wasn't a choice, it was nature. 

     —Okay, so — Bam puts his head outside the car to order, smiling at the excited employee — Sixty nuggets, you know, hum, six boxes the nuggets, three large menus of Cheeseburgers, one with extra cheese and extra pickles, seven apple pies, one oreo mcflurry, four beers, one cola, two orange sodas. — his head turns towards us, before adding — Anything else?

     —Those chicken wings! Please! — Youngjae yelled, before covering his own mouth but still smiling — 'm sorry, I know things are a bit rough right now ...

     —A bit? ... are we going to forget that Yugyeom almost ripped my throat out already? — a sprout of guilt rose in me as I heard Jinyoung hyung's voice from the front seat, his voice a little scratchy — I get he couldn't control himself but I still almost died. 

     It had never happened. As an alpha, I had rut like every other Alpha, but unlike today, I was always able to control myself. Whether through suppressants or isolating myself, I had never become too aggressive or too hard to deal with — the hyungs often teased if I was really an alpha or a very well disguised beta. Well, today? There would be no more doubting towards that, and only guilt consumed me. Even though Jaebeom and Mark hyung tried to soothe me, that their times finding their omegas had been as bad, if not worse, I had still hurt people around me, just to get to my omega. And then again ... I heard their call for me loud and clear, like felt their fear and hurt and heart breaking into a million pieces. Had it been me? Were they upset about me leaving? Would they ever understand? The scent of fried food was not filling the car and I chewed carefully on a nugget, the others creating a more relaxed environment around me. My anger and rage was slowly fading, helped by not feeling my omega near anymore. But somehow ... I missed them.

     After eating in the car, in the parking lot, they left me home. Jackson walked me to the door, just to make sure I knew I could call him at any given time and he would come running. It touched my heart, but like always, my disposition kept me from saying anything. Regardless, I had plans — a drink with my friends. Usually, I'd pick up Mingyu and Eunwoo, but after the little reaction in Mnet, I felt a little unfit to drive. What if my omega was wherever we went? Looking at the chat, my brows quirked at the most recent messages,

mingyu: no, neither DK or Minghao will come, something weird happened today

Weird? What happened today? Are they okay? :jungook

I heard Seungkwan was causing quite the problem at Mnet, was that it? :eunwoo