Bowling be like..

little lover boy

"Have a good night Dasom" i told her shortly before she shut her front door. Her delicate figure disappeared behind the wooden door and left me behind in the young night. The sun had just sunken behind the horizon and now painted the sky in breathtaking gradients from orange to royal blue. It was warm enough to walk around without an extra jacket and on my way back to the bowling booth, i heard crickets hum their melodies. 

"i could have made a move" i suddenly scolded myself. I was left behind with nothing but feelings, but how would she know. I always took extra care of not being too obvious, still trying to be a nice best friend. I haven't felt any different towards her ever since we met. She had catched my attention from the first second. I hated myself for not at least trying something. instead i waited for a miracle to happen or god knows why i hesitated. I kicked a pebble on the street, a poor attempt to release my anger. 

only a few more meters until i would be at the bowling booth. "hopefully the others waited for me" i pondered while i hurried to reunite with them as soon as possible. The heavy metal door squeaked as i was pushing it open and the comfortable gloominess of the building welcomed me, warmth returned in my extremities and a pleasant shiver covered my back.

"She safe and at home?" i heard a mocking voice in front of me. Must have been in thoughts because i didn't hear someone coming until i was face to face with him. "I'm not a kidnapper hyung" i said lowly and catched his attention with it. "I was joking jisung" he then said as he tried to comfort me. "Why are you making such a face huh. Didn't it go well?" i sighed as an answer and earned a pat on the head followed by  a meaningful hug. 

On the way home i was walking next to chenle, haechan and jeno who had a heated discussion about one of the characters in battle ground. The main cause for it being so heated was the fact that it was chenle's all time favourite character but after haechan had played with it last night he must have broken something because the character wasn't available anymore. Things that didn't matter anyways but the three were so into it that i felt left out and so i let myself fall back until i could be by myself. I let my eyes glide over the last few roofings which were still enlightened by the last light of the day, trying to find my inner peace. The day had been very stressful for my introverted mind. Constantly trying to find a way to talk to her was not as easy as one would think. Not if you've never talked to a girl before, not if you haven't been in contact with anyone else than the same six boys for almost five years now. 

I've been trying to neglect the bubbling sensation i felt whenever she was around. Schooldays full of little smiles and breaks with her filled my mind. Our schooldays together were long gone but they setteled in my memory forever and gave me the same kind of butterflies everytime i looked back on them. "Cant seem to get her off my mind" i sighed, struggling with the thought of her not feeling the same towards me. 

Suddenly i felt the presence of another person right next to me and i looked up, just to see mark softly smiling at me. "You heard me didn't you" i asked and even before he nodded i hid behind my hands. Knowing that he knew exactly who my thoughts circled around, was embarrassing to me and i felt the strong urge to hide my red face. He giggled "oh c'mon buddy, its okay to feel like that you know" he said while his arm rested on my shoulder to give me some support. I couldn't hold my sigh back. The whole situation demanded my whole attention and i felt the emotional exhaustion overpower my senses. "Look at this" i heard mark say. What could it be, i thought to myself and opened my eyes to follow his instruction. 

"Huh, is that hers?" i asked with clogged voice. He held a red zip up jacket in his hands, the one she brought to the bowling booth in case she would get cold. I remember being disappointed because i couldn't give her my own hoodie to warm her up. Only seconds later i understood why he showed me the piece of clothing. She left it behind so someone had to give it back to her. My eyes lit up at the thought of having a reason to see her again. Mark noticed my excitement and while he was laughing at me he gave me the jacket. "Go and give it to her tomorrow lover boy" he joked and wrapped me into a warm hug.